You can know your husband is useless but if he has you backed against a wall and not allowing other support, what do you do exactly? No matter what birth number it is? I know full well what to expect and nothing that happened surprised me, just saddened and traumatised.

I KNEW I couldn't rely on my husband, but what choice was left for me? Other than not letting him be at the birth? Which I was strongly considering and he knew that, which is why he took so much time off work pre-birth just so I couldn't!

Please, let me know where I went wrong. Not to be confrontational, I really want other women to be able to learn from my experience. And to help myself more next time (DH isn't even going to know I'm pregnant, let alone in labour! I'm having a freebirth because I'm not having ANYONE tell me what to do, no Obs, no midwife, no doula... no-one. I can't trust anyone).