I was going to post this in the general Pregnancy Vent thread but thought it was a bit more specific than that. It really is just a bit of a vent, but it would be good to hear from other ladies that might have felt the same way.

So, I was diagnosed with Antenatal Depression and Anxiety (with the emphasis on anxiety) when I was only 6 weeks pregnant, and had some ANDA-specific counseling until 16 weeks. The counseling was limited in that it's not something I can return to, because it's part of a research project, and there's no resources for ongoing treatment. But that's not really a problem, as I was feeling pretty well when the counseling finished, and my mood scores were healthy at that point anyway.

That aside, I'm having the occasional "flat" day where I just feel completely sad, lonely and overwhelmed by the pregnancy. Second trimester has been a complete breeze so far, apart from the usual physical aches and pains and feeling tired all the time. But emotionally, sometimes I feel like crap.

Lately I've looked at my belly, noticed a few kicks, and then been completely overwhelmed by a whole barrage of emotions and thoughts, like "my body doesn't belong to me anymore" and "I have no control over this at all." Today I felt like this whilst in a meeting and nearly started crying on the spot.

Some of the physical symptoms also get me down, like noticing that my breasts are covered in stretch marks (where are my lady boobs gone?!), and that I can't leave the house without needing to pee every five minutes.

All these symptoms can make me feel really positive and excited (and a little smug) about being pregnant, especially after LTTTC. But at the same time, they're also quite scary...to the point where I've sometimes wanted to run away from my own body. I'm freaked out by the idea that my life before pregnancy is over and will never return...and yet so looking forward to meeting my little man and welcoming him into the world. Confused much?

I don't feel anxious enough to think that I'm unwell, but since I'm not seeing my counselor, I don't really have anyone to help me dissect these feelings, or debrief the way I used to be able to. DH is very supportive and gives me hugs when I need them, but he can only understand it to a point.

Is this just hormones? Is it normal to feel so overwhelmed without being able to pinpoint why exactly? Does it get worse or better as the pregnancy progresses?

Any thoughts would be appreciated.