Hun, I had this same kind of anxiety when I was pg when ds. It was horrible- it was the loneliest, saddest thing I've ever felt in my life. and it turned into crippling PND when ds was born.

Sorry, I'm not trying to scare you. The hormones will definately wreak havoc on your body and your emotions. But this sounds like far more than that. get a lid on it now. Goi talk to your GP, get the number for mental health intake and go from there- a lot of places have an allocated pg mental health service, and you need someone who will se you through until bubs is at least 6 months old.

Big it's not nice, feeling that way.