Hun, after LTTC I think it is so normal as your little miracle comes as such a huge shock even though it is what you wanted so so much. It is such a confusing and overwhelming time. I was very sick through my entire pregnancy and I got the point where I did not want a bar of my little one while she was in my tummy. I wanted to take her out, out her in an esky and when I was finally rehydrated and no longer weak and able to move put her back in! I didnt want to talk about the 'baby', didnt want to know one little thing about it. I wonder if perhaps it is a bit of a self protection thing, as in, you expect things to go wrong and there for, kind of look at your pregnancy in a different way to a more easily obtained pregnancy iykwim?

I clearly remember at one point I read that a woman was 'scared of losing her identity' and I laughed, 3 weeks later I was hysterical I 'was gonna lose my identity', hormones really dont help many situations either! Confused, hysterical and irrational- pretty 'normal' I'd say!

It is great that you are able to express how you are feeling and that is such an enormous thing! Take each day as it is and if you wake up and think 'gee today sux' then at least you arent lying to yourself and pretending everything is great. Everyone is here to help you. If you think your GP may be able to refer you to someone to have a chat to and you think this will help then by all means thats great. Just remember how wonderful you are, you are a mummy, you are obviously amazing for sharing how you feel and mostly you will get through all the hard stuff. Hey you have been LTTC and if you are strong enough to survive that (even if only just), you will survive anything!

Sorry that was pretty long winded!