I'm not sure how much help I'm going to be but I just had to reply to you! I had reasonably bad anxiety and, in hind-sight, depression with my first pregnancy and it totally sucked. My anxiety was a little different to yours - I freaked out about pretty unrealistic stuff. The best example would be when DH took me to Tahiti for an amazing holiday when I was 20 weeks along and all I could think about every night when we went to bed was that we were going to be wiped out by a tsunami . It's kinda funny looking back but at the time I was in tears every night and genuinely scared.

I think there's a part of what you've mentioned that is totally normal and most women probably experience the fear of the unknown at some point - I know I did. And from my experience it's also more common than I realised for women to have more serious anxiety issues during pregnancy. I think it's great that you've got on to it so quickly - I left it way too long (DD was 8 mths old) and by then I was a complete emotional wreck.

I found that allowing myself to have those feelings without beating myself up about it was the start of working through it all. The more I felt down/anxious the more I beat myself up for not being grateful for being healthy and pregnant with a well baby. It was a vicious cycle Learning to be kind to myself and accepting the thoughts I was having as just thoughts (not a representation of the reality of my whole life) helped me. Not sure if that's made any sense at all, but hopefully at the very least you'll realise that you're not alone with these feelings And FWIW, this pregnancy has been totally different. No major anxiety - just the standard ups and downs that are a part of life. I'm a million times more relaxed. Just wanted to let you know that the way you're feeling now is not necessarily how you'll continue to feel, IYKWIM?

You seem pretty aware of your feelings and I think that's great. I'm sure you'll know if you get to the point that you need some extra help. A good friend of mine ended up taking some anti-anxiety medication towards the end of her pregnancy as for her it was the lesser evil. It helped her a lot and meant she was pretty calm and relaxed during the third trimester when it's most important for us Mums to be emotionally well.

Ok, I've rattled on for long enough! Feel free to PM me if you want to