Thanks Christy and Lara

You know I always thought "as soon as I get preg that's it I'll stop". But I underestimated the addiction. I was really proud of myself when I finally gave up at 5 months preg with my 3rd child, and I stress about whether I have damaged them in some way.

It's funny how it's so hard to give up, but so easy to start agian. 1 smoke and that's it, I'm hooked again.

I guess one reason why I feel bad is because I know that there are so many people who have trouble conceiving and they put babies as the no. 1 priority, and are devastated time and time again after mc and yet I can't seem to do that. The cigs have such a strong hold. When I don't smoke I feel great, but that trigger in the brain is super strong, it makes you forget those things.

Michelle