I just need to get this out...
I have been sooo sick and vomiting for the first 12ish weeks and now Im just exhausted. I just don't feel myself, ugly, covered in acne, no sex drive, no energy and I just feel fat and lifeless. I always wanted to be one of those chirpy, happy, lovely looking pregnant ladies, not a negative girl who's no fun.
We really wanted to have a large family but at this rate, that just isn't going to happen and it's getting to me. I feel like a bit of a failure at all of this.
Phew, it just feels better just to have put words to all of this emotion.