I'm starting to think that for a lot of us that are LTTTCers, these feelings go with the pregnancy and birth. Because we have been waiting for so long, its not quite real when we actually fall pregnant. I know myself the road was very hard, and I had a high risk pregnancy, so I was waiting for something to go wrong. Even my Mum said that she held her breath for 9 months. I really, really enjoyed being pregnant, but there were days that I was concerned whether it was all going to happen.

Just after DS was born, I actually had a moment where the enormity of what we had done came crashing in on me. It was when I was packing up the maternity clothes - and I realised that I had truly had a baby, that this was real. I had to get out of the house and go for a walk, just to calm myself down.

For me, I love my baby boy more and more each day - but there are still times where it doesn't feel quite real. So yes - I definitely get where you are coming from.