Woweeee! So much to catch up on. I won't say I'm back, because I'm more just a visitor at the moment but aren't we all with these busy little babes.

Firstly, oh Janie, my heart is in my mouth every time you write about your Jazzy. We all know this could so easily happen to any of our babies and it really brings it home. You are being so brave and I know exactly what you mean about being "that" parent that doctors see coming. I think my name is known in medical circles all over Australia at the moment. I'm knocking on more doors than the Salvos You know you are right though and you are your child's best and only voice and advocate so don't give up (and I will take my own advice too!). I really hope your paed and new gp give you answers and solutions.

I can't manage much more than match stats on my little bundle of happiness so here I go. Well my jazzy is 7 and a bit months now and well she doesn't much care for rolling. She's been there, done it and really didn't think it was worth doing at this stage so moved on. She has two huge bottom teeth which make her smile just the most gorgeous thing I've ever seen (of course) and she is cutting her 3rd tooth, another bottom one and this time it's hell so I'm hearing what all the teething fuss is about this time round. The first came with barely much fanfare, although now in hindsight, I'm sure that's what made our car-trip down to K.I so difficult at the time, cos those teeth arrived as soon as we got here. She is sitting up totally unassisted and it's funny to think that I look back on photos as "the lying down era". 7 months is absolutley awesome!!!! Andy and I are just loving life with her so much.

I'm doing all the wrong things and I really don't care. Do you get the feeling that I'm a bit worn down and over it. well I honestly just want to be a MUM. I just spent last week in burnout mode, which I have to do every few years and pull the shutters on the world and lock myself up in the house (yep slightly agrophobic, but only slightly). I just returned from melbourne after taking jazz for her MRI and CTs which were under anaesthetic, so slightly emotional time with flying alone and the procedure etc. Now I'm waiting for results and still no word. Jazz had her first cold, plus a sore throat from the tube down it and she cut a new tooth while in Melbourne. At least I was staying with my mum so we weren't alone deal;ing with it and apart from the obvious yucky bits, we had a great time.

Some of you know when you feed and have all your routines, that's what i mean by I'm doing it all wrong. jazz sets her own routines and it's not worth trying to break her out of them. If she wants to open her eyes as big as saucers and laugh at me when I put her down, there is nothing i can do to get her there, so I have to just laugh with her and try again another time. I can't be bothered getting hung up on things too much. I loooooove a bit of structure and when she does have any routine, it's all about her body clock, not because of what I do. I rock, I feed, i co-sleep and if she's not ready for bed, so be it, we play or wind down quietly. Whatever it takes and whatever works. Haha, I'm a rebel. I'm with you Poppyfairy, I've gone form Jazz sleeping 12 hours straight through, to now being lucky if she sleeps for 2 hours at night without a feed, so without co-sleeping, I couldn't function. It breaks my back as she follows the milktruck round and if it moves, so does she. Daddy is quite safe with 2/3 of the bed to himself but we both love it and laugh about it and he just loves that jazz is sooooo bonded to me. He had no bond with his mum, she is just one of those strange mums by name only.

Anyway, of course there's so much to say, but that'll do for now.

Seeya,
ange