Hey everyone, just thought I'd pop in and see how you are all going.

Glad to hear you all had a good mother's day! Ours was good, just had a picnic at home with the kids. It followed a very busy week with lots of family and friends visiting, L's christening and my 30th, so we were grateful for a bit of family time.

L is going great - is crawling, sitting on his own, says 'mama', 'dada' and 'nana'. Has cut two teeth - and surprisingly it wasn't too bad. His day sleeps were a struggle for a week or so, but once the teeth popped, he was back to normal. Still not sleeping through the night though *sigh*...I'm sure it will happen in time.

Friends of ours are having a baby, due in Sept, so I've been going through all of our stuff, sorting out what they want to borrow etc. So naturally it's made me think about the possibility of us having another. Most of the time, I want to. In the middle of a 'bad' night when I'm up for the 5th time I think 'I don't want to do this again!'. But most of the time I would love to have another, I've always wanted three. DH is happy with two. I've been thinking about it a lot the last few days and finally plucked up the courage tonight to ask DH "If when L is 12/18mths and I still want another, would you be willing to give it one last shot (ie do one FET)?" He said "No"

It's not a massive issue at the moment becuase I am nowhere near ready to jump back on that rollercoaster, but I am so worried that if in 12 months time I start to get really clucky and feel like I really need to make the choice and he still won't agree, that it's going to cause HUGE problems for us. Everyone keeps saying he'll come around, but I don't think he's going to. He has said to me several times "if it happened (ie I fell naturally), then I'd be really happy. But otherwise, we're done". How is that fair? I feel like I'm being punished because I can't fall prg naturally anymore. If he is done, he's done, why should it come down to the mode of conception??

Sushee - I remember you went through a similar situation with your DH a while back...how did you deal with it?