Thanks guys!
Well, yesterday was a bit better in that I had work and so was occupied. DS was actually happy when we first arrived at cc - signing 'play' and smiling. But his mood changed completely when we entered his room; clinging to me then crying when I tried to put him down. Went in with him for a while to settle him, then left when he seemed better - but he started crying as soon as I said goodbye. Was very hard to just go, but I did.
He fell asleep again! dropped off in one of teh carers' arms just before I got there to pick him up but he wasn't properly asleep so I took him home then.
Anyway, I guess it'll get better. They said he was happy & smiling some of the time at least. And I guess I don't need to worry about him not being able to sleep there
Happy resignation Shannon. You haven't been working with twins, have you? Or resigning from maternity leave...? I'm impressed that you're thinking about no. 3 already - you go girl! Lol at your DD standing all the time.
Teeth & flu - cripes Sazz!
Hope your family are all better Nic. Not fun. We've largely escaped so far this winter (ah, jinx!), but I spose we have more to look forward to now that DS is in daycare
If you can figure out how to order a better sleeper please be sure to let me know. TIA
I think I'm ready to be pregnant again. No, I am. I want to be, but it ain't happening till I can bite the bullet and wean A.
How is work for you Marcellus? How on earth did you concentrate after the CC drop off dramas? Oh you poor thing, it must be really hard. He sounds like he is adjusting already though if he was happy at the idea of going there. Each day as it comes I guess.
Shannon, We have taken C with us to appts because we do it all secretly and have noone to leave her with really. When I went for transfers DH and she waited out in the waiting room though. Not sure what we will do on EPU when that eventually happens, as DH has to "do his thing" around the time they take me in. Actually, just wondering what I will do when I have to have scans too. Will worry about it when it happens. She just plays on the floor and hasnt been a problem yet. I do feel very strange taking her there, because I know how I felt when I saw couples with a child there when I was yet to have one. I'm sure there are a lot of intense emotions when others see her there with us.
We are going to the clinic for a review appt on monday. Planning on doing a stim cycle in October. We should still be able to fit a frozen cycle or two in after that before the year is out. It will be our biggest year yet, having already had two frozen cycles so far.
Thanks again Sazz. Work is ok, just working as and when there is any for me (and I can get babysitter etc).
If we lived closer I'd offer to babysit for you when you go for EPU etc... but I think the drop off's probably a bit far for you
I know what you mean about seeing kids at the FS. I thought the same thing at first, but then of course it occurred to me that they were probably IVF kids themselves. Which is nice, in a way.
Hi all,
Shannon - yay for thinking about number 3! You must be supermum by now, you could probably do twins again!
Sazz - hope the appt goes well on Monday.
I personally think that it was so much easier to go back for FET cycles than a full stim, and I'm sure I would not have started so soon if i'd had to contemplate all the cr@p that goes with stim cycles. We took DS to all our appointments/scans etc, but again, much easier with a FET. I did feel a bit guilty bringing him along (for the other peoples sake) but we have no family here, so there's not much choice.
Marcellus - good luck with weaning A. It was hard, really hard, but then when it was over with, it wasn't so bad. Now at least i have had some ' bf free time' for when number two comes along.
Hi to everyone, and I hope you and your little ones are well. I will endeavour to catch up a bit more later.
Jo
Hi Lenny, how are you feeling now? Has the MS gone yet? I hope you are going really well.
Marcellus, how is the child care going now? I guess things have settled now. I hope so.
AFM. you are all going to think I am totally mental. We had our FS appt about 2weeks ago and got all signed up to do a stim again in a few months time. I had cold feet only the night before but we talked and talked and decided to go. Well, yesterday we got a nasty tax bill (bloody employers not taking out enough tax all year) and that started money talks. That was followed by AC talks and the long story cut short is: we have decided to stop. I know you must think me mental after only just organising one~! I guess the thing is we tried for 10years to conceive C and have had 2 frozen cycles since, one with an early MC so a total of 12embryos transferred and only one baby out of it all. We are just worn out by it all and so lucky to have the darling DD we DO have. We are both very happy and feel a weight lifted having decided to not do any more AC. I am still sad at the idea of no more babies though. I just have to reconcile the two ideas. We were just feeling we have had our other life on hold all these years and never planning because of "maybe" and now we can just get on with the rest of our lives. Phew, hope that makes sense. I think I will still feel those pangs of jealousy when I hear of other pregnancies but just knowing what our future holds now for certain is reassuring. I do feel a bit anxious about C growing up an only child and have to get my head around that now.
Sorry for the selfish post but it only happened yesterday and I had to get it all out to somone who will understand!
Sazz, you're not mental at all! I think we can all understand that feeling of the weight being lifted. Maybe this is a blessing in disguise: Who knows what else life will bring for you guys now? I hope you can make peace with this and enjoy your lives & little miss C. And I don't think she will suffer for not having siblings.
Well, Master A is already suffering the scourge of 'daycare sickness' - he's missed 3 days already! Such a nuisance. And I got sick as well, though to be fair he probably didn't contract the latest illness at daycare (since he was away sick last week), but anyway. So anyway, we started over this week and who knows how long it'll take for him to settle in. It was easier for me at least
Down to 2 feeds... he just keeps asking for it though! Lenny, how did you do it? I feel so mean... I'm wearing normal bras during the day, so there's some upside.
Sazz - you are not mental at all. I think it's great that you really sat down and decided what was best for you all (Miss C included) and you chose to stop all the AC madness. Good for you guys. You have to start a new phase in your life eventually. What is the best thing for you is always the best thing for your DD - she is as lucky to have you as parents, as you are to have her.
As for the pangs of jealousy - they will haunt us all i guess. These last few years have really opened my eyes to the huge number of women (and men too) who dream of children they never had, or ones that they lost too soon. Makes me hug my own a little tighter.
Marcellus - I felt mean too - very mean. But now DS has forgotten altogether about bbs. Two feeds is pretty good! I must sheepishly confess (don't tell anyone) that I cut DS's last feed the week before i did the FET He was only having one a day and my cycle was totally normal.
Sazz, you're not mental at all! I think we can all understand that feeling of the weight being lifted. Maybe this is a blessing in disguise: Who knows what else life will bring for you guys now? I hope you can make peace with this and enjoy your lives & little miss C. And I don't think she will suffer for not having siblings.
I'm wearing normal bras during the day, so there's some upside.
He was only having one a day and my cycle was totally normal. 
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