Sazz - you are not mental at all. I think it's great that you really sat down and decided what was best for you all (Miss C included) and you chose to stop all the AC madness. Good for you guys. You have to start a new phase in your life eventually. What is the best thing for you is always the best thing for your DD - she is as lucky to have you as parents, as you are to have her.

As for the pangs of jealousy - they will haunt us all i guess. These last few years have really opened my eyes to the huge number of women (and men too) who dream of children they never had, or ones that they lost too soon. Makes me hug my own a little tighter.

Marcellus - I felt mean too - very mean. But now DS has forgotten altogether about bbs. Two feeds is pretty good! I must sheepishly confess (don't tell anyone) that I cut DS's last feed the week before i did the FET He was only having one a day and my cycle was totally normal.