It's entirely normal. Sieving through the crinone clumps to check for blood stain etc. Even doing HPT to check the depth of the second line, lining them up in a row to check the colours is getting darker each day,(which I've been banned from doing by FS and my DH), having hcG done weekly to make sure it's going up and doing precise maths (hcg doubling every 43 hours). I've lost Frosty at 6 weeks, then with this one, I bled from 6-9 weeks, and just passed a big clot at the 12 week mark, I'm paranoid to the ninth. Luckily now I can get a doppler signal since 10 weeks and 5 days, and my friend gave me her doppler, so I can reassure myself everyday hearing bub's heartbeat getting stronger. I've had so many scans (after each bleed), I even offerred my FS to buy his old machine. LOL!
ETA: Oh I forgot to congratulate you! Big Hooray for BFP!!!
Perfectly normal. I lost my first bub at 8 weeks and then I was lucky enough to get a BFP the next month and I bled off and on till I was 12 weeks - so I def knopw where you are coming form! I was allways at the toilet checking, touching my boobs all the time and I did quite a few tests to check line darkness.. Oh I have done it all!
It will get better for you - after a little while you do relax and enjoy your preg - you still worry about things in the back of your mind but it gets easier.
I've had 2 m/c's over the past 11 months and am now 4 weeks 5 days and am doing everything everyone else has mentioned. In fact, I am sore from wiping to check as I've been almost obsessive. I also have just purchased more poas tests so that I can examine the lines every morning - pretty crazy. My scan isn't until 7 weeks and I will probably be in such a state by then.
I remember how unquestioning I was with the first preg before it m/c'ed - I was nothing but a ball of excitement. That seems like a life time ago - who was that naive girl?
Sue- have just come back in here and see you are pregnant! wonderful!!! congratulations
as for your query, you are so normal! I have been exactly the same with all my pregnancies. It's very stressful and hard to relax. I think the first trimester is a tough time..much of our innocence is robbed by this process and having experienced loss. Just try and find joy in each little milestone and think as positive as you can.
Hoping all is going really well
Sue, you are totally normal feeling that way. I was a basket case in the first tri, especially after 2 episodes of spotting. Even though this baby is so very wanted, I did occasionally wonder if I could back out early on because I just didn't think that I could cope
All I can say is one day at a time....you will get there! I managed it and am now only days away from meeting our bub. You can do it!!
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