Sue, you are totally normal feeling that way. I was a basket case in the first tri, especially after 2 episodes of spotting. Even though this baby is so very wanted, I did occasionally wonder if I could back out early on because I just didn't think that I could cope

All I can say is one day at a time....you will get there! I managed it and am now only days away from meeting our bub. You can do it!!

All the best for a H&H pregnancy.

xo