omg grub you make me laugh. i have installed DH as official deforestation expert too. It was so funny the other day when I made him bring up his trimmer to attend to my 'kini area. Imagine hospital bathroom, me not allowed to stand up, no proper shower curtain, and breakfast arriving.... ha. hilarious. and all because I wanted to be 'neat and tidy' for all the lovely internals I'm having. ridiculous!!!!!

murph - I totally second what you're saying. this forum is amazing, and frankly ladies, I don't know how I would have coped through some parts without you all. You hold a very special place in my heart

MHB - wow, what a great attitude. especially at a time like this. good on you. I was doing some reading today and thought of you. Apparently, it can be the case that wome pregnant women have a tendency to test positive for things while they're pregnant, but they're actually false positives. I read a story about a woman who tested HIV positive!! And had to go through the whole preg thinking she was HIV pos only to find out afterwards that it was a false positive. That's what I'm hoping for you

Greenslw - thinking of you and your DH. And I hope this weekend sees some movement at the baby room station. You're a strong woman, and I am sure you guys will get through this. But it will take some work, and it will take your DH taking some action. But like someone else said, perhaps you can seek some counselling or help to come up with some coping and stress relief strategies for yourself. My sister is a terrible and destructive alcoholic and al-anon (for family members) is so wonderful for me and my family. I am sure there would be something similar for other sorts of issues.

big shout out to you other ladies struggling with things at the moment too. there's lots of love here for you whenever you need it.

and to all of you sailing along - hoorah!! enjoy, relax and congrats!

afm, well, saw ob this morning. he said that these issues with the boys are likely to mean that the placentas are starting to fail. so we need to do daily monitoring to ensure bubs are still ok, and that has to be done in hosp, so no going home he also said that at this stage, the benefits of them remaining in my uterus outweigh the risks of prematurity at this gestation, but from next week (33 weeks) the balance starts to shift, and by 34 weeks they are very likely to thrive and develop better outside. So looks like I'll be delivering in about 2 weeks unless a miracle happens!!!

i feel a bit scared, a bit excited, and a big bit relieved that I know what's going on. does that make sense?

love to you all

jenxx