Hi lovelies,
it will be a bit of a me post just to catch you up on what's been happening with me even though I am following all of you.

First, yay Seph...I know that feeling. It's a sign if nothing else and hopefully it won't last too long and make you regret it. 6 weeks, congrats!

Grub...oh defence family life just sucks. I grew up an Army brat and DH was Army when we met so I know the cr.ap they put you through. I'm so sorry it's all happening to you at the moment when you least need it and hope that the family helps ease the feelings. On the plus side, I loved all the time we had apart for really writing letters and communicating. No one does that these days and I'm sure that's what made our relationship so strong when DH was in Rwanda at the start of our relationship.

Okay, so I went to hospital for my 36 week appt on Thursday only to be told that Jazzy is quite small and they wanted to do measurements as they're concerned she may have a small tummy and not getting enough placental nutrients. so there it is. I've been defending the 20 comments a week I get about how small I am/she is and then the first obstetrician I see, confirms it. I've just been seeing midwives and doctors and they haven't seen the need to send me for more tests or to see an obs so I'm semi miffed, but then again, I'm still sure I have nothing to worry about. I've just been messed around a bit through my rural hospital and share care system and I would have given anything to have more tests done down in Cairns for peace of mind, the amount of times I've been scoffed at and I've defended this little bundle.

anyway, the obs wanted me back in Cairns on Monday for proper tests as she couldn't get all the accurate measurement info she needed on the ultrasound and didn't want to wait a week, but they can't fit me in til Wednesday, so there's a bit of sweating in the meantime I must admit (that mother guilt creeping in) and still a breech bub, weighing approx 2 kg (what the???), with no plan. DH has been doing the moxa to turn her and I think I've given up on that working. the obs wanted to turn her and I'm so against that physical manipulation as I've heard really bad stories, but then again, Caesarian....????

I've been doing as Kelly suggested and reading all about the procedure and feeling okay about it but it's so major isnt it? I was so naieve about it all and thought of just a few more days recovery thatn regular birth Now I'm reading about the recovery after 6, 8, 10, 12 weeks etc. that's a long time to be bloody sore hey? Ahhhh, confusion reigns today. D H tells me not to get attached to one thing or another and to stay in limbo where I am because guaranteed things will change as soon as I set my mind on something. Oh dear, you poor things stumbling across my rant today.

I'm also a bit flat cos I celebrated my wonder cure too soon and have been soooooo sick with the worst reflux that absolutely nothing will fix no matter what. I think I've done damage and burnt out my oesophagus as I'm just living on ice and I can't stomach the thought of food. I'm just doing prune juice and almonds. Ha ha, so I celevrated my wedding anniversary yesterday not by going to a Japanese restaurant in Cairns as planned, but by stopping in at Maccas and munging down on huge cups of ice. Yay!!!

i really am just ranting so spare any sympathy for the ones who need it. I should be celebrating 30 days at the outset and maybe less than that and that is just amazing whatever way you look at it.

Kel- 2 more sleeps hey? I can't imagine going into labour after all this time being prepared not to, you poor bugger. Maybe it will make you happy to know that I envied your plans for washing on Tues and wed and whatever the schedule was, because can you believe we have no water? Our tanks are nearly dry and that's all we have, and we have to find someone to cart water to fill our tanks. We recycle every drop and do all the right thiings and yet we've just had the driest winter on record!!! In the wet tropics so yep I have washing envy and I'm currently in triage mode with everything that makes it to the machine.

I won't apologise about the post as I enjoy reading yours and hopefully you won't mind. xox