Hi Renee, I might have to wait a while to see what I will like in the movie the Back Up Plan Did you like it? How is your MS going now?

Lise, tomorrow is basically mum wheeling me around like a total madman to the chemist, Medibank Private, lunch and maybe somewhere to buy my first pair of work maternity pants? I don't know; I am so superstitious about buying anything yet just in case something goes wrong ... I think I am starting to suffer depression from being home alone. I just start crying because I feel I have no control over any of this, and I am a total control freak. I know it's not good for the bubs so I try to remain calm. But it hasn't exactly been a great start to the PG with bleeding and bed rest till week 12. Then I don't know what's going to happen with the neucal scan due to my age etc. Then I worry about bubs being born way too early and having to go into NICU or Special Care. I am trying to be positive and picture two healthy happy little bubs in funky little baby clothes. I am also trying to let go and realise that I am not in control, but every time I say this to myself I just start crying.

Sorry about lack of persies today. I am just really struggling and already far too attached to these precious little ones.