Meredith. I don't know what to say. It's just awful what you are going through. Life with multiple losses is just hell and life without another bub when you so desperately want one is hell too. The uncertainty of your current pregnancy must be doing your head in. Just try to muster up every little bit of strength you have deep inside you to get through this increasingly difficult time. I know it'll be hard but remember to be there for hubby too. I think sometimes men don't handle losses well and this can cause havoc in a relationship. Please take care.