Sorry, will be back to do persies tomorrow but had to get out a "me" post cos my head is in a bit of a spin

Think I posted previously that growrth scan showed "upsy" to be on the small side and lowish fluid, although all else great
Well, OB has decided that based on that and the very complex history of this pg, that he wants her out SOON, as in withion the next 2 weeks ( 35-36weeks at max). I was not expecting this at ALL as bubs seems well and my OB is normally one of the most easy going kind of Dr's. Not over cautious at all.
GIven that, I have to assume he has fair reason to be a bit concerned but I am still scared about whether its the right thing to do. It means special care, not taking her home for a few weeks etc etc.
I have spoken to him a few times since on the phone just to get my head around it all amd I have now come to accept his professional opinion but its still a bit overwhelming given I am not really prepared at all for a baby to be here, let alone a premmie. Have been having 3 x weekly CTG's since the scan and everything fine so not overly worried about Upsy, other than possibly bringing her out sooner than she should
Fortunately, he IS going to let me try an induction/vaginal birth rather than c/s.
Will have an internal this wed to see where cervix is at. If not "ready" then he will let us stretch the pg to 36weeks which would be my preference

Man, I was just starting to relax a bit and hoping to enjoy the last "fat" weeks and now stress is back and I am sad to miss out on the last, good bits! I know it wi8ll be great to just have her safe in my arms but this pg has just been all to much