Sunbeam thinking of you hun. I hope the ob is wrong and that everything turns out ok for you. Sparkles that must be scary having spotting but your ob seems very reassuring and hopefully all turns out well. Littleones sorry to hear about the high blood pressure, you may be holding your little one sooner rather than later, goodluck tomorow. tashybabe glad to hear things are going well, im hearing ya on being tired, im exhausted constantly. Dory hope your last day at work has been good for you. Im sure youll find stuff to amuse yourself for the next 7 months and we definately need to do whats best for bub milly how are you feeling today, i hope the ms is being a little nicer to you now Cherished how was your romantic weekend, i bet it was lovely. haha to dreaming about cloth nappies, thats funny. Bonham great news about your HCG levels you must be over the moon. Good luck with your scan.
Hello to everyone else i have missed, hope you are all doing well.
AFM feeling pretty good other than just very tired, but i have the rest of this week off so ill be catching up on some sleep.
Take care all xoxo
Hi girls, gosh lots to catch up on, just quick one and I'll be back later for more pressies...
sunbeam I am devastated to read your post! and you were back in this thread again so quickly, surely next time will be your sticky bub and it too will happen quickly. Take care of yourself xoxox
Just got call from FS, levels are down from 3100 to 2000 which means a m/c and no need for ectopic surgery. I am in some way relieved as I really did not want surgery on my tubes and then the constant worry of future ectopics on top of everything else. I think the m/c part just has not hit me yet as I still feel sort of numb, I guess it will feel more real when I start to bleed. Part of me is still feeling quite positive because thats 2pregnancies from 3 IUIs and I still feel my baby is very close so the universe can get screwed if it thinks I'll give up.
Sunbeam you are in my thoughts, im glad you are feeling ok about it at the moment. Take care of yourself and hopefully you will be back in here very very soon
Sunbeam - I am so sorry hon, I am truly devestated for you. Know that we are all thinking of you, and are longing to see you back here soon.
Love & Hugs,
XXX
sunbeam I have no words that seem right. I'm very happy to know that your housemate is staying home today to be with you, she must be a very special woman to do that for you. So many people wouldn't bother to do that. I hope you are able to find some answers as to why this keeps happening for you. Your strength is inspiring xox I will continue to follow you as I can't wait to read your BA when the time comes.
I'm having one of those days where I'm convinced that we are going to miscarry again.
I had a day like this 2 weeks ago and ended up at the Dr's getting a BT and ultrasound, both of which were reassuring - for about 2 days! I stopped studying the toilet paper everytime I wiped and even started to refer to it as "blobby" as that is what it looked like on the scan.
But in the last few days I've noticed my ms hasn't been nearly as bad. It seems to hit mostly at night as I'm going to bed, but nowhere near as bad as it was last Tuesday when it was at it's worst. My boobs are feeling pretty much normal, although that said I am getting a few aches in them as I type. I'm also getting a dull ache in my abdomen, but I have had that since the start. I am so scared that this one is a missed mc like the first one and that my symptoms are going away as my HcG drops.
I have my first (and I suspect my last) appointment with my Ob on Friday, but that seems so far away. I guess I just need some reassurance that it will be OK. That everything I am experiencing is completely normal etc etc. I am so scared that we are going to lose this one as well. I have actually been thinking that if I do lose it, that we are done. Desperately as I want another baby, is it fair to put myself and DH through all of the stress and worry. Is it God telling me my family is complete? I hate to burden DH with all of this (again) as I know that he is as worried as I am and there is nothing either he or I can do at this stage to (what I think is) delay the inevetable.
Aaaaaaaagggggghhhhh. It is going to be a long 3 days! Thanks for listening. I know that you guys understand what I am going through as you live with it everyday as well. Please cross everything for me!
Sunbeam - i am so sad to read your news. You have a fantastic attitude though and I am glad to hear you are not giving up. i hope to see you back in this thread quickly and that the next one will be a sticky baby.
Sparkles - I know how scary the spotting can be, I hope all goes well!
Smallfry - Sorry i can't seem to get used to calling you anything but smallfry. Sorry to hear you're blood pressure is creeping up. At least you are full term and I hope if you do need to be induced all goes well.
kirsten - I think we all have days like those. I have them too but so far all is well. Symptoms seem to come and go and MS does tend to taper off (I had 3 weeks where I felt ok and am back to being sick again). At 18 weeks I STILL check for blood every single time i go to the loo. With our history it's hard not to worry. Unless you are having cramping and bleeding though I wouldn't stress too much, I bet all is just fine with baby. I hope all goes well at your OB appt and that you get some reassuring news.
I'm just plodding along, still spotting ever so lightly, but just have a gut feeling things aren't going well, i know only time will tell, so just hanging in there day by day. I seem to have a break down each night as i hop into bed cause i dread what i may wake up to in the morning. sorry to be all doom & gloom xx
just a quickie - blood test results came back with low platelets and BP was up again from yesterday's highest reading so ob has said we induce this afternoon. Heading off in a few minutes to do exactly that.
twinsis - I answer to anything
kirsten - symptoms come and go, I for one had virtually no breast pain and morningsickness came and went but was worse at night. I hope you can hold out til Friday and am sure everything will be really good for you xox try hard not to stress, it will make baby much happier!
Good luck all and will be back in a few days to let you know the outcome!!
LittleOne - sending you lots of easy labour vibes. I hope it all goes well. Let us know how you and bub are when you can
Kirsten - I understand the anxiety and fear, the frustration of not knowing what's going on and trying to prepare yourself for the worst. I wish I could assure you it gets better, but I think it's temporary tbh. Even though we saw bub on Friday and we're further along than last pg, there's an insidious voice in my head telling me I can never be sure, how would I know, etc. I also had days when symptoms disappeared, which had me extremely stressed and reliving our loss. I never got m/s, so there was never many symptoms to rely on anyway. I hope everything goes well on Friday and you see bub h/b. I can't remember how far along you are, sorry.
Sparkles - it's so hard to stay positive when it feels like you're body is telling you things are bad.... I don't know if hearing about others spotting and everything being OK helps or not. It is normal. Can you get a couple of blood tests to see if hcg is OK? I ended up going to the Early Pregnancy Centre at the Royal Womens after spotting for a week. They gave me a scan & I was positive it would be bad news, but everything was OK (it gave me about 5 days relief before I started panicking again) I also discovered that my anxiety was pushing my blood pressure up to dangerous levels, which isn't good for Mum & bub. As my midwife kept telling me, worrying won't change the outcome. Try to meditate or do positive affirmations if it can help you stay calm. Get tests and scans if it helps you stay calm.
I hope everyone else is well.
I'm OK, just still very tired all the time. I'm trying to increase my exercise. I'd kind of stopped in fear of hurting bub, so want to get back into it. It should also help with the fatigue and stress. Today my GP perscribed relaxation CDs She wants me to do them to reduce the level of cortisol I'm producing from being anxious all the time. I've discoverd no matter what the scan etc says, I only get a few days relief before the "what ifs" start again (what if we still lose the baby, what if there turns out to be something wrong?) something I'm just going to have to manage.
The other thing is now I actually realise we may have a baby in 6 months Now what am I supposed to do? What's all this stuff they need? How will we manage on 1 income? Will I lose my identity, my self-confidence when I'm not working? I don't do sleep deprivation. What if I don't cope?....etc, etc. so it turns out I'm a worrier, no matter if things are going well or not. So I think I WILL get those CDs
Littleones - Good luck and can't wait to hear from you xx
Tashybabe - Thanks for your thoughts, i only had a scan on friday(after spotting) which showed bub at right dates and with good HB. I would prefer scans to bloods so if spotting continues this week i am to call my Ob on friday and he wants another scan, otherwise i see him friday week. I am trying to stay as calm as i can which is just sooo hard at times!!! In saying that i have just realised the sun is out after 4 days of rain so i am going to go and get some vitamin d!!
Sunbeam - blossom - that's the spirit. Of bad news, that the pg doesn't seem ectopic is good news? Still doesn't take away the pain of what you are going through right now.
Tashybabe- I hear you sis, but, pause, take a deep breath in and exhale slowly. I reckon being a parent is the definition of worry. I so totally understand your thought processes cause I have them too. I reckon we are both normal ( or nutters, but deliciously so). My advice? Don't discount your worry, but face it, and consider it ( or embrace it) and if there is something you can't shake, then try to think of some strategies to help you through. I reckon finding a way to live with the anxiety is key, else it will conquer us.
Littles ones! I was worried when I read your BP was high, and glad you're going in to hosp. Can't wait to hear how things go. Thanks for taking the time to let us know before you disappeared for a while.
Sparkles - oh blossom. There are no words. Take care and just think, one day at a time.
Better go and get dinner. DH just home and I am starving. Better eat before I puke.
Sweeting I am so sorry - it is so hard - but you have found the things to consider successes and positives in terms of what they aren't so congrats for being such an amazing woman. I had to change my post as I had replied to an earlier one and my response was no longer relevant. Love the strength you have - it will be there to love your forever baby.
Much love
Karen van
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We are such sisters under the skin Tashybabe - you should see the things my dentist says about the impact of my brain vortexing on my teeth - I can grind better than any skateboarder
The best thing about pg and babies - it teaches you that control is a carefully fostered illusion and that the sooner we learn to embrace that concept the better!!!! The great thing about sleep deprivation is that the exhaustion lets you sleep soundly beyond your imagining - see it all works out in the end...
Eventually too - those pg hormones will get you and they do a great job of making all the edges fuzzy and the brain.. the brain.. the brain.. yeah, like that... That's their job!!!
LittleOnes - hope everything goes well with the induction and your birth - got the good vibes going for you and your little one!
Much love to everyone - Cherished1, Sunny09, Tanya and our other wonderful women - trying to get ready for the National Day of Action for birth choices on Thursday - banners, banners - got to keep the good fight going!
Smallfry - Glad to hear they have decided to induce you if your BP is still creeping up. I bet by now you have had your little one and I hope everything went smoothly. Can't wait to see you back and hear how everything went.
Tashy - there is no may, you WILL have a little one in 6 months . I remember being really nervous when I was PG with DS but once he was there all my fears dissolved. You learn as you go and you do manage to cope with little sleep. You'll figure it all out and you'll do a wonderful job.
Sparkles - ugh how frustrating that the spotting continues. Your scan last week went well though so keep thinking about that and try to stay positive. I hope your next appt can put your mind at ease.
I am finally resting a bit at ease today. Even though I've been feeling sick I've been worrying too. I can't help it. This morning I was so dizzy and shaky I was extra worried. I had an appt scheduled for today though, and even though it was a bit rushed (he was over an hour behind in his appts) he measured me, weighed me (went down a pound since last visit, oops), and we heard the baby's heartbeat and told me everything was looking great. It was such a relief! I came home and had a nap and am feeling much better now.
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thinking of you hun. I hope the ob is wrong and that everything turns out ok for you.
I am devastated to read your post! and you were back in this thread again so quickly, surely next time will be your sticky bub and it too will happen quickly. Take care of yourself xoxox
She wants me to do them to reduce the level of cortisol I'm producing from being anxious all the time. I've discoverd no matter what the scan etc says, I only get a few days relief before the "what ifs" start again (what if we still lose the baby, what if there turns out to be something wrong?)
something I'm just going to have to manage.
Now what am I supposed to do? What's all this stuff they need? How will we manage on 1 income? Will I lose my identity, my self-confidence when I'm not working? I don't do sleep deprivation. What if I don't cope?....etc, etc. so it turns out I'm a worrier, no matter if things are going well or not. So I think I WILL get those CDs
We are such sisters under the skin Tashybabe - you should see the things my dentist says about the impact of my brain vortexing on my teeth - I can grind better than any skateboarder
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