Sweeting I am so sorry - it is so hard - but you have found the things to consider successes and positives in terms of what they aren't so congrats for being such an amazing woman. I had to change my post as I had replied to an earlier one and my response was no longer relevant. Love the strength you have - it will be there to love your forever baby.
Much love
Karen van
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: Needed to alter post due to change in situation
We are such sisters under the skin Tashybabe - you should see the things my dentist says about the impact of my brain vortexing on my teeth - I can grind better than any skateboarder
The best thing about pg and babies - it teaches you that control is a carefully fostered illusion and that the sooner we learn to embrace that concept the better!!!! The great thing about sleep deprivation is that the exhaustion lets you sleep soundly beyond your imagining - see it all works out in the end...
Eventually too - those pg hormones will get you and they do a great job of making all the edges fuzzy and the brain.. the brain.. the brain.. yeah, like that... That's their job!!!
LittleOnes - hope everything goes well with the induction and your birth - got the good vibes going for you and your little one!
Much love to everyone - Cherished1, Sunny09, Tanya and our other wonderful women - trying to get ready for the National Day of Action for birth choices on Thursday - banners, banners - got to keep the good fight going!
Smallfry - Glad to hear they have decided to induce you if your BP is still creeping up. I bet by now you have had your little one and I hope everything went smoothly. Can't wait to see you back and hear how everything went.
Tashy - there is no may, you WILL have a little one in 6 months . I remember being really nervous when I was PG with DS but once he was there all my fears dissolved. You learn as you go and you do manage to cope with little sleep. You'll figure it all out and you'll do a wonderful job.
Sparkles - ugh how frustrating that the spotting continues. Your scan last week went well though so keep thinking about that and try to stay positive. I hope your next appt can put your mind at ease.
I am finally resting a bit at ease today. Even though I've been feeling sick I've been worrying too. I can't help it. This morning I was so dizzy and shaky I was extra worried. I had an appt scheduled for today though, and even though it was a bit rushed (he was over an hour behind in his appts) he measured me, weighed me (went down a pound since last visit, oops), and we heard the baby's heartbeat and told me everything was looking great. It was such a relief! I came home and had a nap and am feeling much better now.
kirsten I will be thinking of you tomorrow hon. I think you will find that everything is ok, the other US showed a reason for the bleeding and you may find that you have it on and off as they told you. From those results I can't see why your pg wont be a healthy one. Stay positive
tashybaby I saw a poll somewhere on BB maybe in the general pregnancy thread? It is on when people first felt the bub kick and it looked like mainly around the 18-20 week mark but don't quote me on that cause I can't really remember, I only remember thinking "I've got aaaaages before feeling a kick" lol Oh I hope I get a DVD next week!
AFM I'm hormonal and tears have been flowing today not looking forward to a weekend away from DH
Kirsten - That sounds look pretty good results! Although I understand when you say you can't relax yet. Are you working? Can you just put your feet up and relax during the day (as boring as this is)
Cherished - I know how you feel, I work away all week and dont see DH. Weekends are so good for that reason, mind you, I find in the last month we've gotten all 'lovey dovey' lol
Tashybabe - i felt 'something' at 14 weeks but only when I was laying down adn really relaxed. at 17 weeks I knew i was feeling something and by 19weeks I could really feel movement but everyone is diffferent. I dont know how the anterior placenta works but a lady in my antenatal classes is a larger girl and she feels bub - even sees her belly move and I think she felt from 17weeks although the norm is 18-24.
Dory - 9weeks! thats great...I've watched your journey while I looked in on friends in the TTCAML thread and its great taht things are really going well for you
Sunbeam - poor words of comfort but as you said - thats is two out of three successes and you aren't giving up! Great attitude - I am so proud of you!! Hope to see you announce your bfp with your next IUI
Twin SIster - sometimes all you need is for the doc to say its ok...well at least until you get home and start thinking again lol...great news!
Hi to Sparkles, Elise, Karen Van and anyone else I have missed. I haven't gotten to this thread since it started and had SO much to catch up on!
AFM: 29weeks Don't know where the time has gone but, since some of you talk about it, I still check toilet paper...don't know why, probably just habit by now
Went to docs yesterday for u/s referral and he did general check up. Then he gave me the fright of my life. bubs heartbeat was at 182 which at this stage is classed as fetal distress so he was sending me to emergency department..checked it again, still at 180. then after 3 mins said "hop back up and lay on your side" that time bubs heartbeat was at 145...apparently laying on my back causes bub distress so I have been awake half the night trying not to roll onto my back lol.
DH says we will have to spoon so I don't roll over.
I think we are prepared now...have the pram, bassinet, cot, nappies and some clothes and two baby showers which should get me all the little fiddly bits. Starting to organsie my hospital bag that feels very weird to do!
hi all! Haven't had a chance to read up yet so no idea what has been happening but...
Hayley Michelle was born 17/02/10 at 5:06AM weighing in at 9lb3oz (4.165kg) and 52cm long. Healthy and happy but doesn't like to suck so BF is causing me some dramas (not happy about this as it was so straight forward with DD1 & 2). We got home yesterday and are settling into a home time routine. My BP got dangerously high and has stayed very high since so I am still on meds and have to visit the ob weekly to get checked up and discus meds. Even got told I HAD to have pethadine during labour to try and bring the BP down as it was really really high. Anyway, no tearing, no stitches, so I feel great! Will read up over the next little while, time to try and feed bubs again
Dory - no wonder you were RAK's twice! your posts are so thoughtful and sharing.
Elise - I'm at 29wks and i still worry. If i dont feel movement for a few hours or something like that...its just that we don't have that innocence. Enjoy what you can and dont beat yourself up for feling scared...thats what in here is for p.s. did you see the photo on facebook at 24wks? I look bigger then than at 29weeks! must have been the clothes
Mof5 - I love your little girls names. I can only imagine the heartbreak you have suffered (along with Dory) as while it is still a loss my bubs were all in the first tri. It is great to read you are preg with bubs again. Enjoy the bed rest, when they are here you won't be getting any of it!
HPL - there were plenty of times I would be on the verge of tears and want to leave work last year when there seemed to be every second person pregnant (4 on the level I work on, 8 in total). Its a normal reaction. Sometimes ppl really dont think, a friend went into labour the same day I lost one bub and for her first two birthdays she would text me that it was her little girls bday. Eventually I had to ask her not to and explain that I won't forget it as it is an important date in my life. feel free to vent here, its good for that!
Kirsten - I really felt for you reading your email - I was in the same situation with my first and SIL. I was lucky though that normally she tried to be sensitive. If someone hasn't been through this type of loss they REALLY have no idea
Twin Sister - glad the nausea is eased. I was lucky in that while I did chuck - it was over by week 11.
Bonham - SO good to see you here and with such great news!
Hi to everyone I have missed
AFM: after the little scare with the HB and nearly going to emergency I scored an additional scan I'll have it on March 3 so am really looking forward to it. My belly cast kit has arrived and it is taking ALL my willpower not to do it already. Am waiting till 34wks then I will do it.
We put an offer in on 700acres and it was accepted so now we just need to go to bank and organise finance. Will be crushed if we don't get it. We are quite excited about it. It's for our 'retirement'.
I think I told everyone bout applying for my job? We'll I got first! Now I just need to wait and see if I get permanently appointed from it.
At work so I guess I should get back to it (yuck!)
Have a great Day all - enjoy your bubs...Zen is moving lots and feels like waving or something so 'hi from Zen' lol
Little Ones - welcome to your daughter Hayley - given the HBP you sound like you did a brilliant job - well done on the birth and may you and your bub come to enjoy the gift of BFing - it took me a few weeks first time round to get it sorted - my daughter has a high palate and it was fitting in an interesting fashion. I wish you both a lifetime of shared smiles and understanding silences - Congratulations!!!
Much love to you and your family
Karen van
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Well ladies, it looks like my fears have been founded.
I started bleeding this morning and it has gotten quite heavy. So I think I may be leaving this thread.
Not sure if we are going to try again. 4 miscarriages throws you and you have to start to wonder if it is worth it all (I know it is, but at the moment, not so sure).
Hope you all have wonderful pregnancies and you never know, I may be back!
oh kirsten honey I am so sorry you are bleeding I know you've heard it all before but many woman bleed and everything is 'ok'. Is there any chance you can get a scan today or see your OB early? If you can't see them today maybe go to a GP (any GP you can get into) and get a referal for a scan?
Kirsten im so sorry to hear that you are bleeding, im praying that everything is ok for you. As cherished said it can be quite normal to have some bleeding throughout your pregnancy. Thinking of you hun
Well our nice string of good news seems to have u-turned.
Thank you all for your words of support, I really don't know what I'd do without this place and all of you.
Kristen- the girls are right some people have heaps of bleeding in successful pregnancies, it makes it very scary but it does not always mean the end.
Little ones- can't wait to hear your new baby news
AFM-I had a lovely girls day yesterday with my lovely housemate/friend, she is wonderfully caring. I have had such hugely mixed emotions. Because there was never a gestational sac or anything to see on the scan I feel like I don't know what I've lost, was there ever really a baby there? I know I'm sad because I was pregnant and now I'm not but I have no pain, no bleeding it's almost like it never happened and that just leaves me feeling empty. I am also trying hard to think of something else to focus on for the next 2 months because it will be that long till we can do the next IUI but I've kind of forgotten what I ever did with my time before all my energy was taken up making babies. Bit lost at the moment.
I have been gone for 2 days and have been unaware of all the heart ache people are going through, I am truly sorry .... All my emotions from my last mc come flooding back as I read your posts...
Huggs to everyone, I know it doesn't make things any better or easier right now, but we all know time eases the pain, but the memory and love will always be in our hearts!!
Kirsten74 - I am so sorry sweetie, I know some women bleed during pregnancy, but its of very little comfort to me, when I have bled. I really hope there is good news for you. Am thinking of you. Don't think about whether there will be a next time yet, just get through the tough time you are in now. But having said that, I have had the same thoughts as you....
Sunbeam - I am so glad your flatmate was able to take the time to be with you yesterday. How blessed are you to have such a beautiful flatmate. It's ok to be confused, this is tough and confusing stuff. You will sort out how you feel. Its just really tough right now. You'll get there.
TwinSis - hey good news. I too get the symptoms you describe. I just try to eat and hydrate, and rest of course, as that seems to help. Glad to hear that things are going well.
AFM - still sticky. 9 weeks now. still expecting the worst, esp when others are doing it tough. but positive too? I am a contradiction. I am at peace with the pg, and trying to enjoy every moment, because I don't know when it will be taken away again. I love not being at work anymore, as I am so tired all of the time, I don't know how I ever coped with working full time. Take care.
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We are such sisters under the skin Tashybabe - you should see the things my dentist says about the impact of my brain vortexing on my teeth - I can grind better than any skateboarder
. I remember being really nervous when I was PG with DS but once he was there all my fears dissolved. You learn as you go and you do manage to cope with little sleep. You'll figure it all out and you'll do a wonderful job.
not looking forward to a weekend away from DH
Don't know where the time has gone but, since some of you talk about it, I still check toilet paper...don't know why, probably just habit by now
little ones - congrats on your arrival!
I'll have it on March 3 so am really looking forward to it. My belly cast kit has arrived and it is taking ALL my willpower not to do it already. Am waiting till 34wks then I will do it.
I know you've heard it all before but many woman bleed and everything is 'ok'. Is there any chance you can get a scan today or see your OB early? If you can't see them today maybe go to a GP (any GP you can get into) and get a referal for a scan?
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