Ferrals - I don't know, but I disagree with your GP. I think he/she is a bit old fashion, "Let's not hear the HB becausse you might get attached", well I'm sure that's too late for you, and for everyone else here. I think that your roller coaster needs to be ridden without dampening any of the emotions. And I totally understand if you have such strong moments of love for your little one and at the same time moments of panic/anxiety/stress when thinking about the possible outcomes, that you have no control over anyway. I hope you can step back from caring for others, or caring about work, budget and all the other responsibilities, so that you can ride this storm with your health, mental and physical intact.