Hey all,
Thanks for your patient, calming and kind words, i know i'm obviously freaking out too much!

2 please - Yeah i know i'm overthinking everything way too much, and on a good day, i am positive i will be fine, it's just the days that everything gets to me that it's not, and they've been fairly prevalent lately!!! I at least am thankful for my aunties who have only recently had chn and my mum whose pg as well, because without their knowledge and support, the first few months would have been a darn lot tougher.

Meagan - I know! It's horrible, i got to a point where i'd open a book read three lines and spend the next hour in tears!!!! And yet, i couldn't stop, it was the most disastrous scene. Thankfully DF stuck by and looked out for me, and if i was on the brink of being upset he'd take the book away, of course then i'd just cry at how pathetic i was! It's all very strange and as i'm normally a fairly together, calm person, i think that the emotions has been the hardest thing to deal with. But, i am getting there, slowly, but surely!

Lisa - Thanks also, i know not having a lot of people around has been another big step to overcome for me, originally i wanted to stay in meblourne to have 'jellybean' but realised moving back to geelong to be close to mum was probably the best thing for me. Unfortunately at the moment, whilst i do have *some* really understanding and supportive friends that have stuck by me, it's been difficult with those that haven't. The young age issue, whilst it's always playing in the back of my mind, my mum had me at eighteen (and look at her now, still having babies, due two weeks before me) so i try and see it positively as possible! I am terrified of it, but at the same time i don't think it's my age i'm worried about, i'm confident i can care for a baby, it's just moreso the age of the friends around me. I know that i had friends that think i'm messed up for even considering to keep the baby. DF's best girl friend is fiercely independent and out for herself and has the world against me now, because apparently 'im not as strong as her' (for not wanting to have an a/b). So i'm slowly learning to stay strong and rely on the support of the people who are offering it freely!