:hugs: babysocks....

Oh darlin I wish I could give it to you in person. I'm glad that you are going to see a counsellor. They will help you put things in perspective, and build your self esteem, which understandably is in tatters right now. Try honey to focus on the day your living in for now, not tomorrow, not yesterday, just today. Because today is the only one you have any control over. Baby steps ok...

Its good that he recognises that he needs to work on himself. Let him. You concentrate on looking after you and your baby girl. That's all your focus needs to be right now. And nothing you did or didnt do changes the fact that he assaulted you, physically and sexually. You can't control another person's behaviour or choices. Only yours. He did those things. NOT you. There is never a justifiable reason as to why someone else assualts you. Try to stop the "if I'd done this differently, or this, or even done that...If I hadn't said this, or I had just said yes, or kept my mouth shut..." on and on and on. YOU didn't do this. HE did.
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