I didn't. I couldn't get an appointment with my doctor until late in the week. I did talk to my mum about it all though. Felt good to get it off my cheat and know she's here for me.

Speaking of here for me. I've had so many kind and beautiful offers of company and visits from so many of you! Haven't taken anyone up on it yet Believe it or not I can get quite shy sometimes. But I'm going to try putting myself out there more. Thankyou all so much though, all of you There have been a few huge things happen in the last 24 hours with myself and DH...I'm still very confused and in two minds about it all...but I think that's all for another thread perhaps!

I'm not feeling like such a failure today. I *am* a good mum. My daughter is thriving on the breastmilk I fought so hard to provide her with, she's gorgeous and happy as can be. Today I played with her, cuddled and loved her. I'm not a failure, even though sometimes I feel like it.