My father was in my life up until i was about 4 years old, i have not seen or heard from him in 17 years. Some days i am thankful for it but other days i wonder if he misses me at all, does he think about me? has he got a new family, does he treat them better than he treated us??

My mum always made sure we were well looked after, although i did have a step dad for a number of years it didnt feel like i had a father as he wasnt that involved in our lives. I don't look at myself and think i am any different from other families, i have my sisters and my brother and i have a great mother.

I have to say that i dont think it would be easy for them, it may be something they live to regret for the rest of their lives just like those women who give their babies up for adoption i am sure that a number of them regret their decision every day of their lives but its something we will never know unless we are ever in that situation. but i can never see myself leaving my child.

xxx