Jessey,

I'm a bit like Sarah, I've been reading through this thread & I just can't get it out of my mind. So I figured I'd give you my 2cents of support as well.

Firstly - congratulations on birthing Lyla, she's an absolutely beautiful baby. And I love her name

Secondly - I think that the right thing to do is to look after yourself & your needs, and by extension, Lyla. I've kissed my fair share of "frogs", and I know exactly how heartbreaking it can be when you think that you've found the love of your life & they decide they don't feel the same way, although I didn't have the extra emotional stress of having a baby at those stages. But I can say with almost 150% certainty, that there is never a good reason to stay with someone who doesn't love you, and that in time, windows & doors always open. Geoff will always be Lyla's dad, but he needs to grow up & accept this responsibility, which IMHO, is unfortunately a place that he has to get to by himself, and from what you've written, it doesn't sound like he really wants to be involved in the way a dad should be, at least not yet. But I hope for all your sakes he works it out.

Staying with your Dad sounds like a good plan. I don't (obviously) know what your relationship is like with him, but in my experience, the grandparent/grandchild relationship is really special, so it could be a fantastic chance for Lyla to really experience "family", at least I hope it is. And hopefully your Dad will be able to support you emotionally as well, even if he's not necessarily so good at nappy changes (I know my dad isn't).

Anyway, take great care of yourself, I hope that it all starts to look up for you, and come back to BB as soon as you can.