Single Parent To Be

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I would like to share my story with people. I am a 24 year old and was involved in a relationship with a 21 year old male and after being together for 6 months, I found out that I was pregnant. My partner did not want to keep the child and ended the relationship but a week later he recognised that I was keeping the child with or without his support so we continued a relationship until July, it was difficult being with him cause he cared more for his friends then trying to establish a relationship with me (to be fair to him when he did try to do this, he did well). My heart broke after all the empty promises for the world and now after struggling with the fact that I am alone and trying to reconcile a relationship, my family pointed out that over a 4 week period it was me that contacted him and he did not contact me, just meaning that he does not want me. After tears and tantrums, I was told that he and his family did not want anything to do with me (his family never involved themselves with me in the pregnancy) and even now, I try to include him by asking him to view the 4D scan with me only to be told that he wants a copy to see himself. It may hurt being "thrown away" for his friends and their alcohol binges but it kills me that he and his family are not trying to be involved with me and create a relationship so my little boy will not suffer. I am not innocent either, I'd tell the ex not to talk to me then try to create a relationship or try to reconcile the relationship, I was very confused and hurt but he is not someone that I should not be with in a relationship. I am just so confused by the whole process and continually being "kicked in the guts" by this person and this family. On the positive side, I have a great career that allows me to take maternity leave for 28 weeks and return part-time and also will receive financial assistance from Centrelink so I should be financially secure, I have a supportive family and am being to construct friendships with positive people and I have a beautiful home and everything that my child needs without any help from him or his family and I will be okay as a single mother with support but the sense of guilt for my little boy is overwhelming but how can you force people to have a friendship with you for the sake of an innocent child? It hurts but each day the pain will fade and once he has arrived that my view will change even more so and he will be my world but I anticipate nothing but hosility from these people. I have had my vent - Have other people out there experienced the same? Or have any advice?