HUGE hugs hunni I understand the feeling all too well DD1 I sort of coped with being a girl as she was my safety rock in a violent relationship but DD2 completely different story. Probably not what you want to hear but I was a mess I emotionally detached from the pregnancy after the scan didn't even want to look at her after birth touch her anything she wasn't a boy
I needed a boy to "replace" (**** choice of wording but hopefully you understand) Anthony. It took a good few months after birth to be "comfortable" with her.
But now I'm a mess again being boys I'm scared of everything going wrong as that's what happens when I have boys now look at me hooked up to machines in hospital!

I'm sorry I can't be of any help I can only tell you my experiences but I am here to talk whenever you need I've been there and know how hard it is and find it rewarding to help others through it too


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