Understand completely.
I had such a war with myself before and during the pregnancy.
It's so weird cos with Milana, I had already had a run of girls (now 8, 6 and 4) that I wanted a boy, then when I had a girl then lost her I wanted another baby girl so much.
I have now had my little bouncing bubba boy, and to be honest I am so happy. I am not looking back and thinking what if, or jealous over other people and there baby girls. This for me is my last bub as well and I am just happy he is here safe and well.
Before I had him, I did have a problem with baby girls, now I don't.
I spoke to my psychologist about my feelings and it helped.
just to give you an idea of my feelings, the whole time i was pregnant with J, i knew he was a boy i just had this feeling, and i was warring with myself because i really wanted a girl. now that i lost him, i feel so terrible in myself, that i wasn't 'happy' he was a boy, cause i would give anything, ANYTHING, to have my little boy back, and i just feel so bad for feeling that way, because he was taken from me like that.......does that make sense?
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