The Mrs- Thanks for the congratulations, we have everything crossed, the waiting is torturous. I do feel irrational, but I am going to steer clear of DH's family for a bit and just give myself some time for my head to clear.

MummaBear- Thank-you, you are right and it does sound bad when I type it. Thank-you for your support, I do love my SIL, it's so hard to explain why I feel this way. My best friend has just given birth to a much wanted DD after 2 x DS's. I have absolutely no resentment towards her, it is wierd. I think it is to do with my DH's whole family. There is a bit of an attitute that a boy is better in some way, how is it more of an achievement?? I just can't be around that mentality so I am just steering clear for a while.

NaeNae- Yes I am pregnant. This pregnancy has come very close to the loss of Lucy and by surprise and I am terrified. We are waiting for a second scan to confirm if this pregnacy is viable. Our first scan showned only a sac that is also behind on my dates, so unfortunately it doesn't feel like "clearly its really happening for us" in fact we worry that it may never happen for us, but hopefully you are right! I guess I am jealous, they have what I want.. I would like them to be more grateful for what they have though, instead of snapping at each other, arguing over who's turn it is to change there DD's nappy, yelling at each other if they are sick of it being their turn to watch out for DD and then deciding to have another child beacuse "it has to be done".