I'm so sorry hun, being an empty arms mum is a horrible experience. I lost my DD 9 months ago and my SIL is pregnant again. It's very hard for me to stomach and she is emotionally abusing me with it (telling me I'm selfish for not asking about it, asking me for help to get an abortion without her husbands knowledge and then asking if I will throw her a baby shower the next day). I have chosen to distance myself and if people can't understand that's their issue. I need to protect my feelings and be allowed to take care of me.