Its tough no matter how much time has past isn't it?

I am trying to not think to much. I know crying is fine but I just don't want to let go completly because I don't know if I will stop.

My son Ethan did really well at the Funeral. The church itself was fine. He kept leaning over and rubbing my arm but his face showed all his emotions. As they wheeled the Casket out he broke down and he was struggling as we followed Grandmum to the hearse. We didn't take the boys to the cemetary and I am glad of that decision. We had the hearse come past the house and pause then continue to the cemetary and my sons and inlaws were on the verandah as we all drove past and poor Ethan was devastated. He had a few tears today. He is simply exhausted, It has been a long week both physically and emotionally...

My other son Isaac started on monday saying " when will GG be back" Shes coming back soon isn't she" I am fairly sure for a child of his age thats normal emotions. He has been very quiet and looks thoughtful from time to time. He also started today becoming hysterical if something upset him. My mums cat scratched him and he was beside himself. I couldn't even understand him as he was crying so much. the scratch is barely anything. so I wonder is it more to do with this past week then simply the cat...

*sigh* poor babies. I feel so sad for them that they have had to go through this at such a young age.. Where they can't verbalise properly how they are feeling or even fully understand thier own feelings