it was all just an excuse to get the rage and pain & frustration and tears out
I think children are quite good at finding outlets in that way. I was the same when my Nana died (i was 8), all was cool until i dropped my lolly in the street about 3 days later then i had a total meltdown on the pavement. I agree with Lucy about the crying Nic. I usually have a cry in the shower when i need to as it's "me" time anyway and i can spend a good while sobbing on the shower tray if need be. Afterwards i always feel like i've washed it away and let it out and it's good (also the steam helps with the snot). XP used to sit on the loo while i did this to keep me company (especially after mum died). DP hasn't had the pleasure yet...

hun, look after yourself.

Bx