mummytobe.. sweety, hugs to you, and its very normal to go through the rollercoaster of emotions, one of the main emotions is fear. I know I was very scared (after 1.5yrs of ttc, an ecoptic pg, loss of tube and a natural m/c), but I pushed past all of that and somehow through the fear, I became fearless and now Im a mummy to my very own earth angel. So take it day by day, and eventually your heart will tell you when its time.