well i was leaving work yesterday went to the toilet and was horrified that my af arrived i was so devistated i just couldnt believe it i cried the whole way home and all i wanted was a cuddle from dh but he wasnt there when i got home there was a letter for me i opened it and it was a card with the message i put in the memorial book at the hospital for brooklyn saying that it is now in the book if i would like to go veiw it so that was it my tears just keep coming i thought bad enough that my af came and then get home for it to be rubbed in my face talk about bad timming i feel really silly by saying to people that i thought i was pregnant and now i am not i wanted to say thanks to all of you for being there supporting me just sorry that it isnt my time yet to get that BFP so i will be starting my anti depressants tommrow hoping that they will help i am just trying to look forward to xmas now.
Mummy2chloe
my dh comes home today yeh i have missed him so much he has only being away for 3 days he said he has missed us aswell it makes you appriciate one another when you have time away dont you think. i have been ok at home without him the first night was a little hard but my friend know about my anixioty and she was great helping me with it and then the other nights i was ok i have got great support from my friends and family and it is nice to have them i would be lost without them they all no how i cant stay on my own i just couldnt you are so brave to do it i have harveys school play tommorow i cant wait i will be the proud mummy with the video camera he is gonna be a shephard bless him we are also going to the theatre tonight me dh harvey my sis her kids and my dad to watch the panto so that will be fun hope you are ok and that i was woundering where you had got to over the last few days speak soon.
Tm
how funny this thread is so long now im not sure how many pages it will let me go on for but i do look forward coming on to it thanks for the support with the BFP fingers crossed for next month now.
munchy: I'm so sorry--I know how disappointed you must feel. And we don't think you're silly for thinking you were preg. You've been attuned to your body intensely for a long time now. It's okay to make a mistake--we don't hold it against you. I just hope you get some relief from your sadness because I know it's been rough.
And yeah--bad timing. A few weeks ago my health insurance company sent me a booklet through the mail about how to take care of yourself when you're pregnant (somehow in all that beaurocracy, the info about my MC must have got lost or something). Needless to say, I was ticked off, but I didn't call the company or anything--couldn't see the point.
please dont be hard on yourself and please dont feel silly honey it's ok we have all done it, and to be honest i am doing it now i am 6 days late for af so i to just like you have been thinking i am pregnant, but i done a test this morning and of course it was bfn. Its just so hard not to think anything when af is late, i mean we are trying so hard to fall pregnant and so when af doesnt come of course its the first thing we think, i mean what else could it be other then pregnancy?? ykwim???
ok lets cheer you up, so how did harveys play go last night?? i bet he would of looked sooooooo cute, just think not long to go now and its CHRISTMAS yay i cant wait to see chloes face when she opens her presents christmas day
Yay for dh coming home and to be honest it was perfect timing with what has just happend, just think you can sleep properly now cos he is home, your nice and safe in his arms where you belong. so how did he go on his tests?? really hope everything went well for him
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