i wasnt able to reply for ages on hear as it wouldnt let me so i can finally reply. well on the weekend i found out my sister is 4 weeks pregnant when i got off the phone to her i just burst into tears i was happy for her but at the same time thought why couldnt it be be that was pregnant and telling people the great news i was feeling extreamly jealous and it bought all the upsetting memories back for me lewis was great support i think he is starting to understand me better when it comes to emotions i explained how that the anti depressants had started to work and i was starting to feel happy about things and feel as though i had started to move forward and then its like i kick in the teeth on the same day lewis found out he failed his exam that he went away for so we were both upset and feel like nothing ever goes right for us i just dont know what to do anymore i feel better about my sister being pregnant now i cant wait to be an auntie i just hope she doesnt have a M/C like her last pregnancy as it was so upsetting to see her in the pain she was in this will be her 6th pregnancy but 3rd child so fingers crossed it goes well for her i just hope i will be birthing partner. anyway hope you are all good and mummy2chloe where are you havent heard from you in ages hope everything is ok with you honey.
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