Thanks again girls for your support i feel a little better now i went to the panto ehich made me feel good being with everybody and watching harveys play was so good i videoed it all he was being cheecky in it when they were all singing really nicely you can hear harvey shouting BOO it was funny but i am sure his teacher would have told him off then i caught him and his friend pulling each others faces and laughing he is the joker of the class bless him i was still proud of him he looked so cute. well i have started mt anti depressants only being taking them 3 days so wont feel affect yet cant wait for them to kick in and make me feel better it will be so nice to feel upbeat again and hopefully my normal self but christmas is only a week away now and i am so excited i am gonna wrap all harveys presents up 2morrow at my friends house she is gonna make me dinner and then help me do it and i will leave them there till xmas eve so harvey wont see them i just cant wait to see harveys face i always feel like i havent bought him enough but it is so easy to keep buying and buying you have to stop somewhere ah. Mummy2chloe so sorry you had a BFN it is so dissapointing but if your af still hasnt arrivedf maybe you tested to early i have everything crossed for you let me know how you get on honey. i think i will veiw memorial page just after christmas i really dont no how i will feel going to see it i no its only a message but it will still be upsetting i hate going to the hospital anyway as thats where i gave birth to her i always want to cry when i go there as all the memories come flooding back anyway i had better go got work to do i wont be on hear after this week for a week as i am off work till the 2nd of jan so it will be a nice break cant wait.

Munchy xxx