Since the miscarriage I've been kinda avoiding belly belly. It's just too much to think about, and I'm trying not to be obsessed with TTC. However today it's just all a bit crap.

Combining to make it all crap are:
- lack of weight loss due to PCOS. I've been seeing a trainer for 6 months now. Setting aside the 3 months or so for being pregnant, the miscarriage and getting body back to normal I haven't lost one single gram. My eating has been excellent, I'm much much fitter than I have ever been, but not a single bloody gram. Hovering around 84 kgs is really ****ing me off.
- other people having babies. Don't get me wrong, I'm totally happy for them. However we spent a weekend away with friends who have a beautiful 2 year old. She has turned from being a baby into this little person over night. Then it got me thinking that if everything had been on track I would be 18 weeks pregnant right now. My sister is law is having a baby, due a week after my due date.

So yeah, here I am. I know there are plenty of others in my position, but I just can't help feel a little sorry for myself.

Anyone got any words of wisdom or success stories?

Fiona