I HOPE YOU GET THAT EGGIE AND COME BACK WITH BFP NEWS!! I would be so happy for you!!!
My story is very long...My son is 3 now and a true Miracle. Since I have PCOS My periods are so irregular last year (2007) I only had 2 the first one was o n Aug and it lasted all the way to October. And the second one was Dec12th. !!! I have been with my husband 7 years and never used any type of contraceptive ever in hopes of getting pregnant and nothing ever worked. My family never understood just like I read many women here..people always said,
don't stress it ..it will happen".. NO IT WONT!! I DON'T OVULATE I HAVE TO STRESS AND WATCH MY BODY SO I KNOW WHEN I DO I CAN BABY DANCE AND GET THAT EGGIE!!.. SO after a doctor finally diagnosed me they look at me like "poor poor infertile Ruth"..She is the only one who can;t have kids everyone else are fertile myrtles!!.. It gets to me so much. Well my sons pregnancy was a blessing but also a true nightmare i away.. He was very wanted as I underwent fertility meds to have him.. that month my doctor told me to start testing from week 3 of that LMP..BFN..week after that BFN.. I was so frustrated...one more week after that BFN.. Doc finally told me to get a blood tests and if it didn't come back + then the meds didn't work...so I did a blood tests.. NEGATIVE!!..So doc told me to see him..he needed to see if my tubes were ok and why I wasn't PG.
He did a "you know pelvic exam and went hmmm.."..did an ultrasound AND I HAD A BEAN!!!.. I WAS PREGNANT!!!!!! Beautiful heartbeat ..that was the most amazing sound I have ever heard!! I was 6 weeks..and yet that day my HPTS were still negative?.. Doc said that my hormones were very low and I was at risk of m/c so I got a progesterone shot and a week later.. BFP!!!
at wee 28 I had contractions and my baby had punctured the sac.. I was slowly but steadily losing the amniotic fluid..so I was put on extreme bedrest..then my blood pressure went dangerously high..they put me on a heart monitor till the day I delivered. it really sucked...
My doctor said that at week 28 my baby was probably not going to make it and he gave me a steroid shot to mature babys lungs as he was not going to make it full term. Doc said Ihe had to prolong my PG as far as possible. It worked..but at week 34 when the nurse did my first check up in the AM.. The baby wasn't moving...and the heartbeat was so low... I was so scared. He was still alive but no one knew for how much longer..so they called docs and I had an emergency C-Section. He was 4 and a half pounds and he screamed for life!!! he made it!!!!! He was so healthy that the docs only kept him in the NICU 24 hrs and the next day I had him in my arms...!!! No TUBES!! HE BREATHED ON HIS OWN!!.. A true miracle!!! That was a true happy ending..but 9 months later I underwent fertility meds got PG and again BFNs till week 6....before I even made it to my first docs appointment I was already contracting and bleeding. I went to ER but it was too late my baby was already passing in my cervix. Doc said that since I was only 6 weeks I could TTC again in 2 months..so I did. Nothing...a year later in 2006 I went fert. meds again..and again.. I got PG and m/c due to low progesterone. What's hard is that I don't show a BFP early ..it's always at 6 weeks and it doesn't give me time to know that I'm PG so I can get a the Prog. shot! It really sucks...
So here I am almost 2 years after my 2nd m/c still hoping I have another miracle. People have called me selfish for wanting another child. OMG it makes me cry so bad. Why does that make me selfish???
No one understands..and it seems like wonderful women online whom I don't even know understand much better than those I know.
I'm so looking forward to make friends here...
I will test in the 4thof July (I will be 6 weeks then) and see if I finally am PG!!.. I will let you know. I have had so many heartache.. I just want all this to end and I could fast forward to the amazing moment that I'm delivering a healthy baby (girl..LOL)
I hope I have a girl this time..but a healthy baby boy is so welcome too!!!
Good luck to you and **sprinkle sprinkle with baby / BFP dust*****
I really look forward to knowing all of you!! I see already I will be very blessed to know you girlies!!!
if you want e-mail me so I can give you the link to myspace page (if you have myspace) Just let me know you are from BellyBelly
I'm always on there and you can see pics of my miracle baby and us.
Good luck to all of you I'm sending my best wishes and of course.....
***BABY DUST******
hugs,
Ruthie
angel babies- sorry about AF, keep your chin up and don't give up
tina- sounds like you had a fun weekend, got my fingers crossed for you this month hun
jen- not sure if i'm in the tww yet, am not temping or anything anymore so i won't know for sure when i am. how's af behaving? hope she's not being too hard on you. also hope you've been enjoying some daiquiri's, you deserve it!
kl- not sure if i have o'ed yet, don't think i will know exactly when i do. the chinese herbalist i saw last week asked me to stop temping, stop doing everything basically. she says she is the boss now and for me to just relax, she'll do my worrying for me. so other than taking the herbs everyday i'm not really doing anything, and it's a great feeling to be honest.
ruthie- welcome and thanks for sharing your story, your son is such a miracle. not sure why anyone would call you selfish, seems very ignorant to me. everyone here is great so i'm sure you'll find some much needed support
Ruthie--First, big Thanks so much for sharing your story with us! I'm so very sorry to hear of your losses and your heartache I don't know how anyone could ever consider you selfish for wanting another child! Your son truly was a miracle! I'm you're blessed with another miracle very quickly! The women here are very supportive, I'm sure you'll feel right at home with here with us! :Goodluck2: with your testing on the 4th-- you get a sticky BFP!
pbstar--It's great to hear you sounding so relaxed this cycle! When your herbalist said she's the boss and to let her do the worrying, you really followed through--well done! I'm addicted to temping, so I'd be the one sneaking my temps in the morning, despite being told not to! I've never been very good at doing what I'm told! I wish the best for you with this cycle, go July! Oh, btw, no daquiri's, but did have a couple Mike's hard lemonade's! I'm about to go grab another!
Thank you girlies.... I'm writing absolutely everything down this cycle... it's very confusing cuz my cycle are much longer and ovulation and conception happen much later on.. (thats why I have always had a BFP after 6 weeks) I'm on CD40 today (my last cycle was 44 days so I'm assuming this one would be too) so in 4 more days I will be officially late. So far on and off symptoms not to great of a given cuz PG symptoms are almost like PMS..but here a a few..soar boobs since yesterday under the armpit???.. crazy but yes...umm.. Cm?. I feel like a slug..it's gross. Cervix so up high its hard to reach and its very soft... my lower back has been hurting since I ovulated..just hoping it's not "all in my head" other than that I feel nothing else..
Loads of baby dust to you girlies I hope I hear BFP news soon!!!
As soon as DH left this morning, I rushed to BB (where else would I go??). I noticed on my email that there was a new entry, and I said to myself, I bet that's Jen. Of course it was! Who else would be up in the middle of the (our) night! Thanks for your thanks, and hugs.
Guess what?!? I'M ON HOLIDAYS. YAY I'm a school teacher, and this is the first of my 2 weeks off. DD is at her dads, DH is at work ... and I'm on holidays!! HOWEVER, I need to finish painting the carport so I don't have that looming over my head!
I woke up this morning and was about to change when watery CM just dripped out of me. Does this mean that I might be O soon? I was expecting it to be a little delayed seeing I mc only 2 weeks ago. Would I have that sort of CM if I wasn't about to O? Anyone know. And also, saying that I mc 2 weeks ago, that was when the bleeding started, but I stopped feeling preg 2.5 weeks ago, so could I have mc before the bleeding started? Also keeping in mind, that the day of the bleed my hCG was at 45, and the dr at the hospital said it should have been in the thousands???
Also, went to the pregnancy, babies and childrens expo yesterday. WHAT WAS I THINKING. How depressing!! Have there ever been more pregnant women/babies shoved into such a small environment before. Durrr Ended up only staying for about 10 minutes. DH was over it too. It was pretty crowded, and I didn't really see anything I hadn't seen before that I can't pick up at Target. I pretty much thought I was over my MC and thought, we'll be preg soon, so lets go. Didn't come home and bawl, but felt a bit flat afterwards. I really didn't think it would affect me. Oh well, live and learn!
Angel Babies - Sorry to hear the wicked witch has arrived. I'm glad that work is busy for you.
Tina - Glad to hear you had a great weekend away. Even more glad for you that it involved lots of BDing. I really hope this is the month for you. :goodluck2:
Jen - it's so nice to hear that I am not the only one who gets grumpy when the kids (or in my case kid) wakes up. I have most beautiful, well mannered, helpful daughter in the world (no bias here) but I am such a cow in the morning! I am fine, until she is up. I feel like such a b*tch. The poor darling thing. Lucky for her, she's at her dad's for a week, so she can have some peaceful mornings. And I have also explained to her that I am just a grumpy ol' fart in the mornings and it's not her fault, so the quicker we get ready and out the door the better. I hate it though. I'm not like that with DH in the mornings, just her. Grrrr to myself!
Breath, breath. Ok. Jen, I can't beleive we're up to 27 (ways to know that you're addicted to BB). Or maybe I should change that to I can't beleive we're only up to 27! Oh NO!! Just remembered something. You'll have to add this to your list.... I am cringing as I type this ... I had a dream last night I was reading BB!!! and there was a new entry, but I couldn't really understand what she was saying. Her spelling was so bad you couldn't understand some words and there were lots of words missing. I posted back to her anyway with a big . But I can't beleive I dreamt I was checking the posts. Ahhhhhhhhhh!!!
KL - You just answered my earlier question (when can you ovulate). When it gets below 5. How happy am I!! I will HAVE to get DH into bed tonight. Tie him up and use the paddle pop sticks and gaffa tape if I have to!!! How excitment!! That's the best news I've heard since I found out I was UTD! Thanks!!! That would explain why the dr told me that I could stop having blood tests now that I received two negative results in a row, even though the hCG was only at 2, and I thought negative would mean zero.
As far as the ultrasounds go. YES - I will definately be having them this time (and feel free to pry as much as you like, there's nothing I'm not happy to share with the girls ). You know how they say that things are harmless, and then you find out 20 years later that people are getting really really sick from that thing that they thought was harmless 20 years ago?? Well I was concerned that ultrasounds were like that. I have since changed my thinking, and also because of that pregnancy, I wonder if I had known earlier if perhaps we could have done something about it. I don't beat myself up about it though. It was so long ago, and I rarely get upset about it now. I know that if she (Jackie) had stayed with us, she would have had MANY problems, and she is in a better place now. It also means Billie (her earth sister) has someone to look after her. And apparently tell her the answers to her exams in class, she just got back an almost straight A report card!!!! So, yes I will have ultrasounds this time - LOTS to make sure everything is going to plan. I had actually made an appointment for the Friday following our MC to have one (too see the heart beat). So will try and have one asap to make sure everything is going ok this preg. KL, I just noticed the time of your post, 1:57am!!
Oh KL, your poor hips. My DH went off BDing just after we conceived (although we didn't know that at the time). He was feeling too much pressure (he can be a stress ball sometimes) and didn't want to do it. We had like TWO WEEKS off. Thank goodness I fell! But this time round I have told him that we could take up to 5 months to O, so I'm just crossing my fingers and hoping that he comes up with the goods when I proposition him! I'm hoping he doesn't suspect anything. As much as he wants a baby, he doesn't want to think about one when we're BDing. Understandable I suppose.
Toccara - I wish I could get onto BB from my phone - well may be not - I would probably spend a months worth of credit every day.
Ruthie - You poor thing. Don't you hate it when they tell you to stop stressing. Just scratch their eyes out next time. They'll get the idea! Ruthie, what a miracle story. I can't beleive you took him home 24hrs later. That is AMAZING! I can't beleive people are calling you selfish. If anything is going to make you see red ... !!!! I can't wait till 4 jUly for you. Ruthie, I don't have a myspace. Sorry, is that similar to facebook? I'm on facebook. Are you? What about the rest of you?? Ruthie, do you use fertility friend? It's fee and it's really handy. Just google it, or click on my link at the bottom here and you can have a look around.
pbstar - good luck with your relaxing. It will be nice to have someone else in control for a while.
How do you PM someone?
Anyone else on facebook??
I can't beleive I have just spend a WHOLE HOUR reading last nights and this morning's posts and replying. WHO'S DOING MY PAINTING FOR ME??
have a quick question...im confused about my chart...i got a +ve opk on Friday. I also started to see a temp rise on Friday, and then a further rise on Sat and Sun...do you usually get a rise so soon after +ve OPK? I haven't got a cover line yet on my chart...when does that come? aahhh...i dont know whats happening!!!
Not sure cause I haven't used OPK's. I know that you O and then I think the next day your temp goes up. So maybe you actually Oed on Thursday, but you would still be fertile on Friday. Hope this helps a little. Did you DTD on Thursday or Friday?
Plc~ Thanks sweetie I'm really trying to stay strong and pray that I will a really good mommy ... thanks for the hugs !!!
Joey123~ Girl I really wish I would have stayed home because I got into with another employee at work today I get that a lot because I'm really quiet most of time so people like to mess with me but today I stood up for myself and I will be writing a statement on him and turning in to my manger!!! he was super rude to me I hate my job anyway I been looking for a new one I work at an casino and being in all that smoke everyday has cause me to have smoker lugs now and I keep getting sick doc says I will continue to have problems as long as work in all that smoke ( no offense to those who smoke!!!) ... Also your story breaks my heart sweetie !!! I really hope you get a BFP soon you deserve it ...Oh and I pay 20 dollars a month for unlimited Internet and text message on my cell so I can log onto BB from my cell all day long lol ...
Ruthie~ Sorry to hear about your loss I hope you get that BFP you are hoping for!!! Welcome you will find the girl's here to be really nice ...
Angel Babies~ sorry about AF good luck this cycle!!!
Tina k ~ Ton's of for you !!!
Jen~ Yes this journey is very draining and hard I wanna be there for my friend who is having the baby but seeing all that baby stuff may be to hard right now I'm trying to be strong but I never really took any time off or time to grieve really I only stayed out of work for two days and I my family has no Idea what I'm going through they don't have any ttc problems but I have you girls so its helps me soooooo much !!! I don't know what I would do if I had not found BB ... lol and yes I'm getting addicted logging in from my cell phone lol !!!
KrystieLove~ yes I'm addicted ... lol
Ok whats going on my ticker said I O'ed last Monday but I'm just now seeing CM I am so lost right now and I'm having lower back pain ... other than the stuff that happen @ work today (see the personal to joey for info) I had a better day then yesterday I listened to my DH tell me how much he loves me and how we will have babies one day and be one big happy family btw I been hanging with his mom lately since he works midnights now and we are really bonding ... OK 12:36am here off to bed I go ... love you girlie's !!!
About them people..yeah sometimes I feel like hitting someone ..LOL
telling me not to stress.. OF COURSE I HAVE TO STRESS I CAN'T CONCEIVE ON MY OWN!!..
Anywho...LOL Yeah I have facebook.. I'm Ruth E Montan find me in the search thingy they have.
About my preemie....yeah it was a real surprise to see my doc come to my room with this TINY baby in his arms..my baby!!.. He was breathing on his own (remember how I mentioned the steroids my doc put me in to mature his lungs on week 28?) Well it sure worked!!.. He was tiny though and I had to feed him this yucky milk that looked more like goop..it was pure fat to make him gain weight. It smelled really gross. My poor baby...but he gained weight very fast!! I am the happiest mommy.
I'm watching my body closely but I know..I have been pregnant 3 times..but to tell you the truth 2 were miscarriages and all I remember feeling was the extreme pain..and with my 1st..well he was my 1st and I didn't know the things I know now ..so I don;t even know what I felt with him...and as a matter of fact besides the complications I had ..I had no morning sickness or nothing at all. It was really cool.
So I'm asking you mommas...what things did you guys feel that totally gave that you were expecting?...
I keep telling myself "it's all in your head" to save me the heartache if I get a BFN...but heck... lower back not cramps but like I dunno this annoying on and off light pain?
boobs hurt under armpit?...
...I can't wait till Friday.. I am going to test. Am so nervous too...LOL (I always do)
Thank you for your baby dust I SURE need it!!!
Baby dust to you girlies too... I can't wait to hear from you girls!!
hugs,
Ruthie
Oh here is the link to myspace if you have it.. I look forward to making friend that understand this whole TTC mania!!..LOL
Thank you..
got my fingers crossed for you this month hun
I don't know how anyone could ever consider you selfish for wanting another child! Your son truly was a miracle! I'm 
you get a sticky BFP! 
I've never been very good at doing what I'm told! I wish the best for you with this cycle, go July! Oh, btw, no daquiri's, but did have a couple Mike's hard lemonade's! I'm about to go grab another! 
I'm a school teacher, and this is the first of my 2 weeks off. DD is at her dads, DH is at work ... and I'm on holidays!! HOWEVER, I need to finish painting the carport so I don't have that looming over my head!
Ended up only staying for about 10 minutes. DH was over it too. It was pretty crowded, and I didn't really see anything I hadn't seen before that I can't pick up at Target. I pretty much thought I was over my MC and thought, we'll be preg soon, so lets go. Didn't come home and bawl, but felt a bit flat afterwards. I really didn't think it would affect me. Oh well, live and learn!
. But I can't beleive I dreamt I was checking the posts. Ahhhhhhhhhh!!!
That would explain why the dr told me that I could stop having blood tests now that I received two negative results in a row, even though the hCG was only at 2, and I thought negative would mean zero.
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