hello ladies... im back for a bit, for a quick catch up & afm...

to all our aug bfp ladies: boy do we ever need more bfps than now... i feel so down on the numbers! come on bfps!

& jenushka: sorry belated...

our new friends: goodluck & hope your ttc journey is short...

jen: im that you had all those great symptoms & af still showed up! its not fair...

paula, tina: stay healthy & happy!

afm: nothing much interesting to share really. this cycle isn't it for us either. dh & i (well mostly me... since we women feel the loss so keenly... since we are the ones to carry our little angels in our womb & heart... but we wouldnt have it any other way would we ladies... apart from the loss...)

anyways... we're going to try iui - intrauterine insemination - insertion of semen straight into the uterine cavity to increase the chances of pregnancy, & also try fertility drugs too, to increase the number of eggs & chances.

i've told my gp a little white lie to get the referral - that we've been ttc for about a year.. its only been 6 months, but i believe that because my body is not producing sperm friendly cm or any cm at all, that this would turn out to be true anyway - im just not prepared to waste any more time when i can do something about it.

People have told me to relax & it'll happen, but there's no way i can do that until i have my baby in my arms...

we'll go through tests & stuff, so hopefully we dont have any other fertility probs... i really think our failure is because of the lack of cm on my part... i hope the iui will work for us - i had a dream before i found out about iui that was something along the lines of the iui process, but instead of inserting spermies an egg (my own or another's) was inserted into me (sorry if tmi) & somehow i got pg naturally at the same time & had twins & to that the doctor said: thats impossible! but anyways, lets not start me on weird dreams... i have them pg or not!

anyways, thats my bit for the time being... hope & dreams of everyone here having bfps by the end of september to make up for the previous months' numbers!

my thoughts & prayers are with you all always...