Matthews mum and eliselouise thanks for thinking of me I can't wait to test in one way and too scared to test in another so I can't win but thanks for the support I really feel better being able to tell someone how im feeling,

eliselouise keep going girl hopefully I can join you in the other thread soon and if not then I just keep on trying as the girls stories on here about 45 yr olds really gives me hope I am 45 in April ! and have had 14 pregnancies in 24yrs but its never been easy for me to keep them I have lost 5 bubs upto now and it never gets easier ! But I do know the worse you feel the better for you IYKWIM your hormones are strong you feel crap !

all the other girls keep on going we all need a BFP this year !

T-hopes how you holding out are you like me too scared to test but need to know !

MURRAYCOD thinking of you every day and waiting for updates more excited about that than peeing on a stick ! crazy hey !