Trying to Conceive after Miscarriage/Loss - June 2009

[maddison]

I just put my bbt chart on fertility friend and it says in only 8 dpo. My 2ww is going backwards instead of forwards!!!

[Sunbeam]

Hello lovely ladies,

I'm with you Anila, my symptoms are pretty much all gone too so I'll be very surprised if I get a BFP this time but not giving up hope.

Ferrals -I have no idea how you managed not to deck that woman, what a stupid b!@#%h lets hope she learns to keep her legs together, imagine what kind of mother she'd make! Good luck today with the mad dash home, hope dh finds an energy reserve
I use the OPKs from the net, just little thin strips. I've only used them 2 months but found them reliable so far.

KM1-sorry to hear the bleeding is ongoing. I hope the u/s offers some answers and you can get back to the TWW soon.

lots of and lots of for everyone.

[Sunbeam]

I just put my bbt chart on fertility friend and it says in only 8 dpo. My 2ww is going backwards instead of forwards!!!

I'm kind of glad I'm not on ff it seems to be a bit crazy and changes it's mind a lot.

[maddison]

Sunbeam / Anila - dont give up on having no symptoms yet. I dont have any either but trying to be positive. As a lot of other people say 'We are pregnant until proved otherwise!' Bring on the for all!!

Sunbeam - Have you always used the same Donor Daddy? How wonderful to have a great friend like that.

Smallfryplus - Nausea sounds good. You are having some seriously good symtoms!! I am keeping my for you.

Ferrals - what a horrible woman to work with. Its amazing the things people will tell you. Well done on the self control and not slapping her out. Silly silly woman.

KM1 - im sorry that you bleeding is being so erratic. I hope it stops for you and you are feeling a bit better soon. I understand how frustrating it must be. Did you have any luck getting in for an ultrasound?

Goodluck to everyone on the 2ww and everyone else at other stages.

[TinaR]

Hi everyone, I haven't been posting but I have been reading the posts...what is scary is that I am reading some seriously neutoric sounding posts...and it is the exact same stuff from what is in my head. lol
its weird to be with a bunch of girls who are in my situation or close to it and yet from each other we are getting the support that we can't get from those closest to us.
Anila - my db sounds SO much like your man...he finally txted me the other day and said he doesn't know what to do to make me feel better. he has just been ignoring it cause I have been acting not completely crazy.
Unfortunately I have been feeling that way. I took wedensday off work. not as in called in sick..as in just didn't go to work, turned off my mobile, went and got my hair done, sat in my car and cried took the day off. It was my bday Thursday and it was supposed to be a joyful day...it kinda sucked.
I feel so desperate to get preg again that i wonder if its better to wait..but I REALLY dont want to. I wore a dress to work today that I have a completely flat stomach in, only two weeks ago it was noticably popping out. I've lost 5kg in a week - looks good but annoys me cause its another reminder that i'm not preg.

some of you sound like you have awesome symptoms...MS? that is such a good sign!I have my fingers crossed for good results for all of you...while I may get jealous of some peoples pregs I can only wish us all the best - we deserve it. i think I am rambling.

I don't know the first thing about charting my cycle and expecially now that the bleeding has finally stopped from MC. I think that if we dtd each day this week there is a chance of catching any eggs but don't know if my cycle is right for that - good excuse to get back into practice

Fingers crossed that those of you testing this weekend/monday get the that you are all hoping for..you deserve the joy and its nice to hear that there is light at the end of this miserable tunnel.
Awesome...that was my whinge/rave/rant for the week.
Sorry I'm not really using names< I am at work and know I prob shouldnt be on here...I think my boss is to scared to say something lately in case I cry lol.
Its very strange that I just thought to write love to you all....I don't know any of you but I feel an amazing connection

fingers crossed and wishing you all the best...check back in by Monday.

[Sunbeam]

Hey Maddison,

Yes I have always had the same donor daddy since TTC (though there were two possibles before him, other close friends of mine, that could not be my donor for various reasons). Donor daddy is great and still totally committed to having a baby even after the two m/c. He has a partner too who is lovely, they will both play a huge part in the baby's life and he will definitely be the baby's dad though the baby will primarily live with me. I am very happy with the situation.

Thanks for the encouragement too.

[milly5]

Hi Ladies, can I have a selfish post please?
Feeling Blah today...
trying to complete an assignment, and no motivation WHAT SO EVER.
Trying not to cry - I really shouldn't be crying now, but I got an email from a friend (she told me she was pg right after I had the m/c, she didn't know), anyway, it was all happy and wonderful, and life is rosy, pg progressing beautifully, and while I am happy for her, I am insanely jealous. I know that she had also been TTC for a while, and I shouldn't be jealous, but I am, I just am. THere, I said it. Oh, why can't I be pg anymore??? I shouldn't keep looking at the calendar ....

I forget who asked about the weight - yes, I put on weight, I still hadn't been able to lose the weight gained from Angel#1. This time I had started to gain some weight in the pg, and I haven't lost it, I have been trying but to no avail. So I'm feeling fat AND miserable.

[Sunbeam]

Hi TinaR-Glad you could stop in and say hi. Yes it is very frustrating and confusing knowing when to start again and knowing where your cycle is at. Charting helps but you may need to do it for a while before it gives you any useful info. Good luck with chasing your egg this week.

Has anyone seen coco she is MIA

[Sunbeam]

Every time i post there is a new post that did not show.

Milly5- BIG hugs, you have every right to be jealous, we all do. We want our forever babies so much that hearing about anyone elses is bound to make us jealous and sad for what we lost, we can't deny our feelings and neither should we. I just try really hard to hold onto the belief that my little angel will come back to me when she's ready, but I soooo wish she hurries

[maddison]

Milly5 - Im sure that every single person in this forum has or does feel exactley how you feel right now. I know i have. Being jealous of a pregnant friend or family member is totally normal in our situations. Is she a good friend? Maybe if you explained your situation to her (if thats something you feel up to) she would be a little more considerate in giving you all her details. Im sorry that you are feeling so upset and i do hope you are feeling better soon. Never feel bad for feeling jealous and wanting to be pregnant.

[coco1411]

Hi Ladies, can I have a selfish post please?
I really shouldn't be crying now, but I got an email from a friend (she told me she was pg right after I had the m/c, she didn't know), anyway, it was all happy and wonderful, and life is rosy, pg progressing beautifully, and while I am happy for her, I am insanely jealous. I know that she had also been TTC for a while, and I shouldn't be jealous, but I am, I just am. THere, I said it. Oh, why can't I be pg anymore??? I shouldn't keep looking at the calendar ....

Milly hun, I am in the TOTALLY same position as you with the friend...I want to wring my friends neck blurting out that she is pregnant and she was so ignorant that she didnt even know how far she was given te due date...I corrected her. I think she got the hint to shut up and not talk to me for a few weeks...Im jealous too, no one but us in here will ever understand the way it feels...

[juleswa]

Hi Girls,

Just popping in to say a big good luck for those testing this weekend. Hope to hear some good news soon.

Having a bit of a down day today, not really sure why. Just quite disinterested in anything and everything. Have so much housework to do, but really and truly can't be stuffed.

RANT WARNING - You know what else? I'm sicking of spending money on other people when I barely spend it on myself! We've had lots of birthdays, weddings, and stuff so it seems that whenever i go to the shops it's always for someone else. i can't remember the last time i actually went to buy myself something new to wear, or got something for me just for the hell of it. We're on a budget on one income as it is, so I'm not really that way inclined to go and shopping for myself anyways, but why then do i have to spend that money on other people?!?! I desperatly need new shoes (i'm just waiting for the heel to break whilst i'm walking around and will be superglueing them this arvo), i was big and pregn last winter so basically haven't bought any non pregnant winter clothes in two years, and i'm sick of looking daggy and dated, or if you look too closely see that everything is falling apart. Yep! that's why i'm down today cause i had to go to the shops to be another friekn present!!!! so you know what? i bought myself the new Pink CD which I have been wanting for absolute ages just because. Which is not the way it should be and I probably shouldn't have got it, and it didn't make me feel all that much better cause i feel it was out of spite, but too bad! RANT OVER

Sorry - nothing to do with babies, but needed to vent.

[ferrals5]

afternoon ladie's im happy to report that we achieved the impossible i was running late to leave work as i had 29,000 dollars or so to count and couldn't find 35 of it so it took me a while to find it then by the time i drove home it was 4:20 and DH has to leave home at 5 so it was high kid's mummy need's a shower after a hard day at work i will be out in about half an hour DH had worked himself up knowing that we had to BD today to give us a good chance so mission accomplished

Sunbeam & anila sorry to hear that your symptoms are not real strong but i can never tell when i'm pregnant i get no symptom's so dont give up yet

TinaR-i know it's hard i feel desperate to fill that void of not being pregnant i was 5 mths along and no one around me was pregnant now i have an empty belly and there is like 6 people close to me all pregnant between 12 weeks and 20 weeks and i hate it it kill's me every day

Milly-it's hard not to be jealous when you have somthing you want and love taken from you and then it seem's to be shoved in your face where ever you go
And the weight thing i didd't put on a thing while pregnant with my daughter but when we lost her i have put on 2 kg i feel yuk!!!

juleswa & coco-hope all is good with you

Cherished & greenslw hope all is well with you to also
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[Jaffaz]

Hi All

I am new to this site (first post!). It's great to find other women to share with.

I m/c on 20/4/09 5w6d. Just wondering how long it generally takes to get you next period (so far nothing). I have also been charting my BBT and no sign of Ovulation. It's very frustrating, I really want to start TTC again.

I wish you all the best, and fingers crossed for those testing over the weekend!

[Inanna]

Welcome to BB Zacsmum - and I am so sorry for your loss..

It can take up to 8 weeks (sometimes longer) for your period to return... I know it's really tough when you have to wait, it can seem torturous... Keep the faith my love, it will happen. You will find much loving support in here on your journey. I hope your time with us is short and you get your bfp soon...

[KM1]

Thanks for all the supportive comments guys, I have u/s booked for Tuesday morning so fingers crossed I get some answers!

Sunbeam and Anila good luck with your tests, don't give hope yet , but I know how reluctant we are to get our hopes up for fear of having them dashed...

TinaR how are you feeling? I had a complete meltdown last night after staying strong for a while and I think we need to give ourselves permission to be upset and indulge ourselves with whatever it takes to help us back up (whether its getting your hair done or that new Pink cd Juleswa- we deserve it for having the strength to get up in the morning and face the world!)

Speaking of indulging I too have put on some kilos since the m/c, I really think in my case its from comfort eating (and drinking, can't ttc atm so may as well have a wine or two!).

Milly5 my sister is 21 weeks so I can totally relate to the jealousy, and the post-jealousy guilt which makes you feel even worse!

Hi ZacsMum, sorry you had to be here but welcome, I am relatively new myself and now don't know I survived without these wonderful women!

[maddison]

ZacsMum - Im sorry for your loss. This is a wonderfully supportive place to be. After my m/c i had bleeding for about 2 weeks and then got a/f about 4 weeks after that. Everyone is so different.

Just wanted to wish anyone testing over the weekend the best of luck and hope everyone has a happy stress free long weekend.

[Anila]

So i have posted this in the other ttc thread, i tested today and i got another definate bfn, i feel so numb, i want to cry, but im so over feeling sad, iykwim, all i have done since the mc is be sad and angry, and even though i feel i have the rite to be, its affecting my life, i was hoping that i would fall pregnant straight after the mc, just like some of my friends have on here, and im sad that i havent.
I keep thinking we didnt bd enough and its my hubbys fault for being too tired to dtd, but thats just me looking to blame someone, its not his fault at all.

any way im just waiting for af to show up, i had some nasty cramps today, so i guess that she is telling me she is not gonna play nice this month, this will be the first af since the mc, im not looking forward to it.