Trying to Conceive after Miscarriage or Loss May 2007

[Heybacko]

Sharon - said it before and will say it again - LEND ME YOUR WILLPOWER!!

Oops, was posting out the same time!!!

YAY - yes indeedy, a line is a line, though of course understand your fears from last month.

Keep us informed!!!

[Sharon19270]

Lee thanks for the positive thoughts, and I will definitely be keeping everyone updated
Heybacko I always only intended on making it to 12 dpo without testing since I tested at 9 dpo last time which in hindsight I know was just too early. You can be strong too, just repeat after me "do not test early, do not test early, I am strong, I can do it" LOL I have my for you though.

[maz]

YAY Sharon - a faint line is a line....how exciting!!!!!!!! so totally over the moon for you.
Satya - if I lived near ya honey I'd go tot he shops for you. Cry your heart out mate and just use some flannels in the means time as they say ' its better out then in'
Bun - I wish I could just give you a big hug. Please dont bottle up your feelings, let them out. You poor chicken..f%%%%!
Lee - Soory AF is being such a cow for ya. I hope next month brings better news.
Alex...ohhhhhh I dont know how your not testing...It owuld be eating me up inside. I wanna know now!!!!!
Jen - its not over until the fat lady sings honey....you still could be UTD
HI ya everyone else - hope your all being positive a can be (no egg throwing at Maz please)
Ive been sick as a dog with the flue and only really had slight m/s today. Kids have all been sick so havent had much time to think for me. Im booking in my scan for the 6th of June- I think I'll be around 7 - 8 weeks by then so feel abit safer about having 'dildo cam' if needed. Still not really thinking aobut being pg to much cause im scared that I'll get to excited and i'll m/c again. We're damed if we do and damed if we dont. All this stupid stress! I thoughts it might have been easier once I got my BFP but NOOOOOOO im so scared to do certain things incase I start to bleed. Happy thoughts, happy thoughts
Ok going girls, enough dribble from me and ive got to go and cough up another lung before I go and pick Wilhelm up from Kinder
Mauw all

[BekZ]

Hi Everyone,

Thanks for the bday wishes.

Sharon - Way to go hon. Crossing my fingers that I will see you in the PAML thread real soon.

SP - I have a very strong feeling about you this month. I have had it for a while now and I can't wait to see you in PAML as well.

In fact I can't wait to see all you lovely ladies in the PAML thread.

I am going fine atm. Afternoon sickness is really bad but I am getting used to it. Only 2 weeks till my 12 week scan, which I am quite nervous about.

Anyway best go and

[*las*]

Happy belated birthday to the birthday girls! Hope you were spoilt rotten!

Maz - look after yourself and that precious bubba! Hope you are feeling better soon.

Satya - It is very daunting going back to the FS, but hopefully this is what you need to fast track things a bit...keep us posted how it goes.

Bun - lots of hugs to you too It would be incredibly frustrating to have unexplained infertility. Be gentle on yourself and take each day at a time.

Sharon - WOW! Looking good!!! Can't wait to hear after next test...everything crossed for you sweet!!

Heybacko - happy belated anniversary! You are very strong not testing...but I do hope when you do, it's a beautiful surprise!

Lee - Hope AF is being a little kinder to you now!

Have been trying to keep busy and pre-occupy my time, it's hard deciding not to cycle this month, because now I really want to! We are moving house in 3 weeks, to a place with cheaper rent, so next time we cycle, we can afford to go back to back. It scares me only having 2 embryo's left, and if they don't work, I have to go through the stress of another full stim cycle. So I feel like I REALLY need to be in the best possible place, emotionally, before I do another one, positive mind, positive result, right???!!!!

Hi to everyone else

[Lee]

Hi Ladies,

Gee, I'd forgotten how hormonal you can get during AF. Yesterday and today I've not stopped crying about my little boy. All the things we will never get to do together. I ache for him, and his death is a pain that is so terrible and so excruciatingly painful, it is just undescribable. I miss him. I love him. I hope he know this.

Needed to get that out. Thanks for all being so supportive. It really helps.

Lee x

[mummytotwo]

Just popped in to say hi & spread some babydust around!
Big hugs to all you ladies doing it tough - may there be a light at the end of the tunnel for you all soon!
Good luck to those due to test - it would be so lovely to see a rush of BFPs in this thread!
Thinking of you all & hoping good things happen for each & every one of you!

[Sharon19270]

Bun thanks, I still don't really believe it though.
satya :hugs: I don't understand how Dr's interpret bt results, but hopefully your will find out more from the reproductive specialist.
maz I know they say a line is a line, but it is very very very faint, think about a line that you can only just make out, and that's what I got, I suppose I just don't want to be disappointed
BekZ I felt so sick yesterday, every time I ate something I thought I was going to vomit. I have a really good feeling about this pg of yours being a sticky one.
*las* I would definitely be hard going from someone who charts every day to not charting at all, I really do hope that your next transfer ends up being a sticky one for you
saltprincess thank, but I just don't want to believe it after last cycle. Sorry you are feeling sick, hope you feel better real soon.
Lee :hugs: of course you are going to miss your little boy it is completely natural to think of what could have been, just keep letting it all out.
mummyto1 thanks for the babydust we all really need it in here.

Well I tested this morning again (of course) and there is still the faintest of lines (have to hold it up to a light) to be seen, but I did make sure I checked the hpt at 5 mins and could see it then. I just feel like I shouldn't get my hopes up after what happened last cycle. On a positive note yesterday I hardly felt like eating at all, and every time I did eat something I came VERY close the throwing up and all I tried to eat was toast at b'fast which I got half way through, then 2 slices of bread & butter at 3.30pm (that was the worst) and didn't try and eat anything then until 9pm where I had cheese on toast which I only just managed to eat.

[BekZ]

Sharon - Sounds like you may have some ms going on. I remember that you got ms very early on last time. Fingers crossed and hope this is it for you.

SP - How you feeling? Sorry to make you cry the other day.

Bun -I quickly read that you started clomid. How is that going for you?

Lee - Big hugs to you hon. Your pain must be so raw and hard to deal with at times. My thoughts are with you.

Hi everyone else

[Bun]

Hi guys,

Sharon - was the line darker today? It definitely sounds like you are having some m/s which is a great sign! Best of luck and hoping this is a sticky one!

BekZ - yes, I have just started on clomid. It seems to be going well so far, not too many side effects. I am on CD8 now so not much happening yet, but I have a BT tomorrow to see what's happening. Hopefully I will O sometime around CD14 for a change and will get a sticky bub happening!! Glad to hear all is going well with your pg, it is great inspiration for the rest of us!

mummyto1 - thanks for the baby dust! I am glad your pg is going well. Hopefully I will be able to join with another clomid bub asap!!

Salt - how are you feeling today? I think this cycle will be a positive one for you too. I certainly hope so! Re O'ing late - I couldn't help thinking it was a problem too, but apparently it isn't necessarily so. At least you have a supportive OB who you can talk to and can hopefully reassure you. I hope you are feeling better.

Satya - so sorry to hear of your confusion after your appointment. It all sounds a bit confusing. Maybe your GP is concerned that although you O, it may not be a good O unless your progesterone is a bit higher? I really don't know much about estrogen. I am very certain that the only reason she has sent you to a specialist is because of the time you have been trying, your age and the fact that she now feels out of her depth. GPs really only have v basic knowledge on these matters (I have found out from experience! I honestly think I know more about fertility and m/c than most GPs now!). I think it is good that she has sent you to a specialist. The result may be that either you are told it isn't a problem, in which case that will reassure you, or if they think maybe you could have a stronger O, then I guess they will be able to prescribe treatment for you which will hopefully work! Try to keep your head up - it is a good result really, and don't worry too much about the hormone levels. Have you made an appointment yet?

Hi to everyone else and I hope you are all doing well.

Bun xx

[reneenay]

Hello Sharon, Bun, Saltprincess & everyone else

I just wanted to pop in and send you all some positive vibes and BIG BIG HUGS. I miss you all so much and it’s not the same without you around! I hope everything is going okay and you are taking care of yourselves!

We found out a few weeks back we are having a boy! I hope you don’t mind me barging in here, I just wanted to let you know.

Keep smiling, I’m looking out for our posts in the pregnancy announcement threads!

Lots of love
Renee

[Leyla]

Hi Ladies,

Satya - So sorry that you are feeling down. Going to the specialist is going to be a good thing in the long run though, I am positive of it. You are going to be bare foot and pregnant in no time!

Salt/Bekz - extremely belated happy birthday! (I'm a bit behind, I know...) Hope you had lovely days!

Sharon - Big congrats!! Sending you loads of sticky vibes. The symptoms are soundling great. Hope the ms is not too hard on you. I would not worry too much about how faint the line is. When I was pregnant the line was very very faint, but my blood results were quite high, so you can never tell.

Bun - Sounds like things are moving along well for you. Glad that you (and DH...) have not suffered any nasty side effects!

Lee - So sorry you are feeling down. Just let it all out honey, we are all here for you.

Well, I am still waiting for AF to arrive, but and doubly confused now. FF has given me back my coverline, but my temps are all over the place still. I have been wondering if it is the battery on my thermometer. I took my temp last night just to test it and got 3 very different readings within 1 min (36.6, 36.1 and 36.8). Does that sound normal to anyone?
So I am now on CD 38, and 20 DPO. Tested BFN yesterday, but did not get a BFP until 24 DPO last time. So my question is, when should I see my GP?

thanks for listening to the rant!

[mummytotwo]

Bun - go the clomid!! With DS I was on my 4th cycle of 50mg clomid & this time it was my 1st 50mg cycle. Wishing you all the luck in the world. The same goes for all you girls!!!!

[Sharon19270]

BekZ that's what I thought, but didn't haven't the same sick feeling today, just didn't feel like eating, all I have had today is 2 slices of toast for breaky (10am) then at about 12 I had a packet of Toobs, then nothing till dinner time, although I couldn't eat the sausages they tasted really strange, and only managed some of my vegies.
Bun No the line wasn't darker, but could definitely see it (in the right light)
saltprincess hope you are feeling better today, I hate it when my computer loses a post, and it is usually a really long one. I have to admit that when the line came up again today I felt a little more positive even though it wasn't darker.
reneenay I have actually been stalking the old belly buddies thread and knew you where expecting a boy, congratulations, I am very happy for you. You may be seeing an announcement thread from me in a few days
Leyla thanks, i'll take all the sticky vibes I can get. I don't necessarily want the lines to be super dooper dark, just dark enough for DH to believe me that it is there LOL. If it was me and I was 20 dpo I think I would be making an appt to see the gp in the next couple of days, good luck, hope you get your bfp this cycle too. Can't help with the temps though, sorry.

Now I may sound like a bit of an obsessive here, but when I tested this morning I kept my fmu sample, and then went out and bought 2 other different HPT's and tested with them, and on both of them I got a very very very very faint +ve too, do I sounda little neurotic to anyone So you all guessed it, I will be testing again in the morning.

[Heybacko]

Now I may sound like a bit of an obsessive here, but when I tested this morning I kept my fmu sample, and then went out and bought 2 other different HPT's and tested with them, and on both of them I got a very very very very faint +ve too, do I sounda little neurotic to anyone So you all guessed it, I will be testing again in the morning.

Now that's my kind of obsession!!! As you know, this behaviour is completely and utterly normal in our house!! I did tell you about the time we camped in France and I used a whole 50 stick tube of HPTs in one week waiting for it to go darker ???? (it did, he's still asleep at the mo!!)

Post when you've done the deed Sharon!!!

[Lee]

Oh Heybacko - you did make me laugh thismorning - 50 HPT in a week, my god woman!!!! Love it!!!!!!!!

Sharon - looking forward to reading in the morning about your darker line!

Well, I finally was told yesterday that my little boy had pneumonia. I am yet to speak with the pathologist to ascertain what type and how he might have contracted it. He was only 18 hours old when he died. When he was born his breathing was noted by a midwife to be "laboured" and my obstetrician told us she would get a paed to look over him. Despite me asking when was the paed coming 3-4 times, they never came, and my son died. We will be heading down the negligence path. All my baby boy needed was antibiotics and a thorough check and he would be here with us still. Do not be deceived into thinking you get the best of medical attention in a private hospital - the system has let my family, but especially our baby, down. It's heartbreaking.

I was not sick when I went into labour. My MIL flew in from Rome 2 weeks before bubs was born, she had a terrible chest infection. I thought I was coming down with it after a few days of her being here, but I nipped it in the bud. Do any of you know if the baby could have contracted this infection, but not me?

BBL - someone at the door.

Lee xoxo

[Heybacko]

Oh Amanda this is just too, too heart breaking and qalso makes me so angry.

Do you remember I asked you to talk to them about Group B Strep??? I tested positive for this and Joseph was born with double pneumonia and needed a lumbar puncture, CPAP, month in SCBU, ABs etc??

I know you said you had tested neg. for GBS but can you remember when they took the HVS??? GBS can leave your body very quickly after birth (or so I was told) and still leave bubs with problems that are associated with it. Remember, this is nothing to do with your blood work, it is detected by HVS.

I had an awful chest infection in the December just before Christmas (bad UK winter) and JoeJoe was born mid-January - they assured me that without the GBS, JoeJoe would not have caught pneumonia just from this - if any knows different, please post! This is just what they told me. So based on this, I doubt your baby could have caught anything from your MIL without you at least showing symptoms, if at all.

Amanda - next time ( ) I deliver, I will have to have ABs intravenuosly at regular 4 hourly intervals after my waters have gone (or when I go into full labour) until delivery, then bubs will continue to be treated with ABs after. This as a precaution, even if I don't test +ve for GBS at the time. It can disappear and reappear at intervals.

I think you should check whether you had an HVS, when it was done, can they def. 100% rule out GBS and discuss whether you should be tested for it when you go into labour/waters go next time (there WILL be a next time )

Also, they cannot rule out GBS by saying bubs tested negative for it. Have a look at some research on GBS on the web, and make them tell you why they can 100% rule it out, for your own piece of mind for your next bub.

I'm so sorry if I have come on a bit strong but when I read about your heart breaking loss originally, I had tears pouring down my face, for both your little bubs and also because of the chill this sent down my spine for Joseph.

Take care of you and yours, and see what you can find out. I am 100% with you on the med.neg route (my degree is in law and I have worked in the UK NHS for years), you go for it, for your little man

Huge loves
Alex
xxxx
xxxx

[LisaL]

Hi Girls,

As a former member of this thread I just wanted to wish you all the very best of luck with ttc and praying you all get the healthy BFP you deserve. It does happen, you just have to believe.