Stay away for a few days and come back to this !

Ferrals I am with you all the way thats why im not on here very much, taking over my life and making me miserable its not good, try and try your hardest to be postive and think good things when in the back of your mind you just know its a waste of time and energy ! if I was 20yrs younger then I would not have to worry so much but time is about running out for me and I feel like I am flogging a dead horse !

Kitfaeri you get to keep your bub this time around its not always bad news for us even though it feels like it at times, you are young and deserve to have a long and healthy pregnancy and I wish you all the best CONGRATULATIONS !

Millyd sorry its not too good for you, but it happens another blow after being so happy life is just so cruel sometimes, I really think you need to talk to your DH about this time line as you are young and have a lot of years ahead of you thinking about not being able to have more when you could infact have more, I think it will slowly destroy you ! none of us are that brave ! NOT me anyway.

Murraycod thinking of you have everything crossed for you I know how hard its been for you but the light is at the end of the tunnel I just know it is ! so keep stabbing and keep positive you so deserve this !

everyone else sorry I can't do more personnels but like I said its hard being on here been 8mnths for me not that long compared to some but I guess I know my time is running out and I probably don't have the energy for this TTC lark and another pregnancy, anyways had a dreadful nightmare the other night that I got seriously ill and had a small baby that I knew I wouldn't see grow up ! scared me to death and think its a wake up call for me !

So I wish everyone well and will keep checking for BFPS and post every now and then but I think I will hand it over to the younger ones of you and tell you that being a mum is well worth fighting for whatever you have to do its just the most fantastic job in the world and I feel so privalidged that I was able to spend most of my life looking after little ones ! now all of you keep going and remember its worth fighting for the end prize I mean ! TO YOU ALL !