Polly....."I should be 15 weeks today, instead I have to start again, wishing & hoping for another chance." I so hear you on that one - that was how I felt too (as did I'm sure a lot of girls here too). One does feel incredibly robbed of being able to continue with the pg you want so much only to have it taken away from you and start all over again month by month. You sound very positive with not going to give up - big hugs hun - but don't feel you need to be brave all the time if what you really want to do is cry and cry. It is such a frustrating journey - some are only on it for a short time, others unfortunately are on it for quite a while. I wish you a speedy journey sweetheart to your BFP and to meeting your earth baby. Even in the ugly times, there does need to be that seed of hope. Please know we are here for you.