princess 85, I only just joined here a couple of days ago after my second mc and I must say that it has been a great help to me. The girls on here are fantastic and supportive and because we're all going through similar stuff they know how to hit the nail on the head, unlike, unfortunately my very supportive husband (I love him to death, but he has no idea). with AF, hope it comes soon and you and your new husband to be can make a sticky bub.
Thank you everyone for the warm welcomes. It's good to be able to talk to people that have had similar experiences as i have no one else to talk to. None of my friends or family know exactly what it feels like they can only imagine.
AF hasn't returned. I've never been regular even when i was on the pill. I go back my gyno at the end of the month which will be be my check up 6 weeks after d&c.
Dutchy- i know how u feel my DP tried to be supportive but like urs has no idea. He says i'm here if u wanna talk but he doesn't understand or know what to say. But i gotta give him points for trying.
Princess. It's shame you have to be here but you've certainly come to the right place for support. I only joined in October and the wonderful ladies on this thread have been my lifeline!
Dutchy - So sorry to hear about your 2nd loss. I hope the specialist can give you some answers.
Ruthie - I am in awe of your courage and strength. The last 12 months have been the hardest of my life, it has been a constant struggle to cope with one m/c so I don't know how you have coped with 3. I you have some good news soon.
Mannie - Hope you are healing.
Hi to Mollycat, Jen, Megsmum, plc1805, WTH and anyone else I have missed!
AFM - Well I made an appointment with the FS today and I got in next Thursday! I am so happy we don't have to wait very long. Bit nervous about what the tests might sow up but it will be better knowing and doing something about it rather than keeping on trying with no luck.
Hi lovely ladies! I too must admit I'm guilty of being a dirty rotten lurker lately. Have been checking in almost constanlty but nothing to report so staying quiet.
Princess and Dutchy: So sorry you have to be here hons, but the ladies are wonderful and everyone is so supportive. Here's to a very speedy TTC for you!!
Jen: It's so strange when you're quiet. Freaks me out!! Sheesh. Call me dependant! :P Hope everything is all good, hon! Big your way
Mel: I hope everything goes wonderfully with the FS and that you get some answers! I'll be keeping my fingers crossed for you!
All the other lovely ladies who I haven't mentioned: I'm thinking of you all and sending big and loads of babydust your way!!
AFM: Have our scan in under 2 weeks now and am really starting to freak out. I'm sure everything will be fine, but my stupid brain keeps coming up with worst case scenarios. Stupid brain. I've been getting a few kicks (a lot in the direction of my bladder) and have been ridiculously out of breath. My dear mother puts it down to my boobies - which have now swelled from a G to a GG (and I'm not a super huge girl)- putting pressure on my lungs. I'm inclined to agree, but I'll check with the doc when I go. Had awful tummy pain today and panicked a bit but by the way I've been, um, gassing this evening I'm going to say it was just that. Lovely gas. I'm so darn glamourous at the moment. hehe.
Anyways, nuff about me. Sending you all babydust and sticky vibes.
Dutchy and Princess - a big and a very sad welcome to you both. You have def come to the right place for amazing support - may your stays be short and sticky
Well, yesterday I succumbed to the ugly cry and had a huge meltdown. The day began with a close friend telling me that she was pg in her first month of trying. I am really pleased for them but why do I take so long to get pg - I want to be able to get it right first time. Then I heard my SIL was in labour so I bravely went along to the birth which I was actually ok with . . . until the dr came in to deliver the baby and it was the same one that we'd had with my last m/c. I held it together and had a big hold of my SIL baby girl (1 1/2 hr labour btw) and stayed and talked for a while but by the time DH and I got back to the car, well the floodgates opened and I just couldn't stop, I literally bawled all evening long. So now, after a crap sleep, I am looking incredibly glamerous with big dark circles and nasty wrinkly bags under my eyes and we have a do to go to tonight. At this do, one of DH workmates and wife will be there and they are about 30 weeks pg and he is like a kid in a lolly shop and if he patronises me by telling me it'll happen when the time is right, I will lose it all over again. Why does it have to be so hard. I just want to hide in bed cos then I can't see or hear about anything so it can't hurt any more. I am having the strangest feelings because for me to get a bfp now would be absolutely terrible timing (we have to wait until December to try), I can't help this horrible jealousy. None of my friends really understand what its like cos they haven't been there and I really hate feeling like this - makes me feel like the biggest
b!tch in the world. Anyway, I will stop this ranting and raving but I needed to get it out to people who do actually understand. Thank you for being there and letting me ramble.
Melissa - first of all, well done for holding it together when u visited ur sil and baby - that would have been incredibly hard!!! second, don't try to understand why u are feeling this way - i don't think from my experience there is anything rational about feelings relating to m/c. It is pure emotion. If you are feeling sad, frustrated, alone, unfairly done by - just cry, cry, cry. Those ugly cries are really horrible and one feels totally spent, numb and devoid of energy after them. But one thing they have going for them is that they are an enormous release for emotions that you just don't know what to do with. Your friend tonight has no clue about what the TTC wait is all about if he says "it'll happen when the time is right" - has no concept of the related emotion. He thinks he is saying the right thing but it is just such a general thing to say. The time was right for you years ago emotionally but physically what's the hold up? Not even worth explaining, clarifying with him. Focus on other aspects of the do (if possible) to distract from such conversation. Ramble away hun - the physical answers may not be found for you in this thread but we can sure darn give loads of support emotionally so that day to day you can get by.
Welcome princess85 and Dutchy - you have come to the right place. I hope the support you find is as beneficial as it was for me
I'm with you Mel on that one I hate people telling me that's it's just not your time! What a load of crap - I have three cousins all who have children that they didn't want, all were teenagers and single when they had them and then there is my brother and I, my brother on fertility medication and me who doesn't seem to have found a sticky one yet! Stuff those people - I have taken to the abrupt and quite rude approach, probably not one I would reccomend, but it sure helps me!
I also have a friend who has been trying for nearly two years, that keeps telling me, well at least you can get pregnant! The other night after my second miss I blew up in her face and told her that I would rather have not been pregnant at all than to have lost two babies!
Some people are just insensitve and only think of themselves because they have no empathy so they think what they are saying is the right thing, I say tell them how you feel and then at least you won't have constant reminders. I recently got married in June and since then got asked a million questions, we told everyone there was to tell about the first miss and bang everyone avoids the conversation. Thank god because I really don't want to talk about it now that I have had the second.
I'm a big believer in getting everything out in the open, after all people can only treat you the way they think you are feeling if you are up front and honest (not rude like me) then they hopefully will back off. It's that good old saying of you never know what you've got until you miss it, if they were in our shoes I bet they would be breaking every two seconds and not dealing with it as bravely and as well as what we are! Enjoy tonight, have fun, make the most of life. Because as my good old Mum always tells me good things come to those who wait, you don't want to know what I say back though !
princess 85, I only just joined here a couple of days ago after my second mc and I must say that it has been a great help to me. The girls on here are fantastic and supportive and because we're all going through similar stuff they know how to hit the nail on the head, unlike, unfortunately my very supportive husband (I love him to death, but he has no idea).
with AF, hope it comes soon and you and your new husband to be can make a sticky bub.
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you have some good news soon.
I am so happy we don't have to wait very long. Bit nervous about what the tests might sow up but it will be better knowing and doing something about it rather than keeping on trying with no luck.
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- I want to be able to get it right first time. Then I heard my SIL was in labour so I bravely went along to the birth which I was actually ok with . . . until the dr came in to deliver the baby and it was the same one that we'd had with my last m/c. I held it together and had a big hold of my SIL baby girl (1 1/2 hr labour btw) and stayed and talked for a while but by the time DH and I got back to the car, well the floodgates opened and I just couldn't stop, I literally bawled all evening long. So now, after a crap sleep, I am looking incredibly glamerous with big dark circles and nasty wrinkly bags under my eyes and we have a do to go to tonight. At this do, one of DH workmates and wife will be there and they are about 30 weeks pg and he is like a kid in a lolly shop and if he patronises me by telling me it'll happen when the time is right, I will lose it all over again. Why does it have to be so hard. I just want to hide in bed cos then I can't see or hear about anything so it can't hurt any more. I am having the strangest feelings because for me to get a bfp now would be absolutely terrible timing (we have to wait until December to try), I can't help this horrible jealousy. None of my friends really understand what its like cos they haven't been there and I really hate feeling like this - makes me feel like the biggest
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