Melissa - first of all, well done for holding it together when u visited ur sil and baby - that would have been incredibly hard!!! second, don't try to understand why u are feeling this way - i don't think from my experience there is anything rational about feelings relating to m/c. It is pure emotion. If you are feeling sad, frustrated, alone, unfairly done by - just cry, cry, cry. Those ugly cries are really horrible and one feels totally spent, numb and devoid of energy after them. But one thing they have going for them is that they are an enormous release for emotions that you just don't know what to do with. Your friend tonight has no clue about what the TTC wait is all about if he says "it'll happen when the time is right" - has no concept of the related emotion. He thinks he is saying the right thing but it is just such a general thing to say. The time was right for you years ago emotionally but physically what's the hold up? Not even worth explaining, clarifying with him. Focus on other aspects of the do (if possible) to distract from such conversation. Ramble away hun - the physical answers may not be found for you in this thread but we can sure darn give loads of support emotionally so that day to day you can get by.

Welcome princess85 and Dutchy - you have come to the right place. I hope the support you find is as beneficial as it was for me