Hello to everyone.

Tam - that's ok. i'll forgive you AF has left YAY. And I'll start polishing those shoes shortly.

BTW - I sent an email to Ruthie and here's her reply:

Hi Sweetheart!!!!! I miss my belly belly girls!!!!!.... The move went well...yet I still have no internet till the 21st.... I'm in a friends house using hers....

OMG A LOT has happened here...... After my D&C on the 12th I bled like for 2 weeks..then things got back to normal and we kinda missed ..you know..sex. LOL (blushed) so we "did it" like maybe 3 times.....and guess what??... I got 2 faint lines in 2 $ tree tests last week.,....
looks close to this one...maybe a tid bit fainter but def you can see a faint line in the attachment I included to this message is an example pic, mine is a bit fainter.. its not from my last pregnancy it has been 5 weeks since so my HCG levels from that pregnancy went to zero a week after ... hwo i know?.. I did test and watched how the lines faded to nothing again...


I'm not so excited.... this is so strange I'm saying this but this is the first time in my life I DON'T want a BFP!!!

I was hoping to Try in Nov with the Specialist.... cuz Hubbys Health Insurance kicks in on Nov 1st..if I'm pregnant right now I can't afford the meds I need so that I don't miscarry agaian.

I just have fear..fear of being pregnant again and all the heartache if I m/c again.

Ssooooooo To make sure I'm testing Thursday morning with a First Response..its the only test I trust if it shows a line too then I'm DEF pregnant again...if it doesn't then I will be so very happy.... I will feel more confident getting pregnant with a doctor walking me through.. ( a Perinatologist)
...so its all this suspense...my symptoms??.. ALL.. ALL the symptoms I had with my Angel pregnancy!!!!! So it has me all jumpy.


So I will manage to let you know how it went after the 21st when I get internet back.
So that's my news..and if I am indeed pregnant I conceived w/o meds..which sounds great..but yet I know I will miscarry.
If it's real I'm abour 3 weeks close to 4 so My Due Date would be somewhere around June or July?
so thats why I'm not looking forward to a BFP yet..I was hoping for a Dec BFP...oh well...

Thank you so much for thinkingof me... please let my BB girls know I miss them and love them very much!!!

you can copy paste this message there if you want.. I hope I can findmy way around to find you gals.. I bet many threads have started..
Miss you!

Hugs to you all..and on the 21st I WILL update you!!

Ruthie

Smi - glad to know that you and Lee can talk nicely

From the post I put on the other forum I visit I now have had three replies. All three will be lighting candles tonight (one lost twins many years ago, one almost lost her bub at birth and the other will just support us) It's a beautiful response - the word is getting out there AWARENESS = SUPPORT