Belinda Please don't ever apologise for rambling as you are just expressing your feelings. We all empathise with you hun. Just remember that its still early days and you will start to have some good days. But you need to let it all out as you are grieving. We are all here to support each other during the difficult times and as you know we all have those.
I hope your appointment goes well on Friday, I will be thinking of you:hugs:

Kbowman Enjoy your trip to Hong Kong sweet. What a great place to be spending Christmas. I wish you all the very best for this cycle too.

Missy I know its a little delayed but I truly am so sorry for your loss hun. Remember to be kind to yourself and know that we are all here for you.

Lou How are you sweet? I haven't seen you around for a while, I hope you are ok.

Hi to all I've missed. Will catch up soon.

As for me not much is happening. Start the bd fest in the next couple of days and I'm trying to get things sorted out and packed as we are going away for 3 weeks on Monday. I really don't want to go as it is the first time back to the place where my 1st m/c took place and I have to have a 23 day b/t at the same hospital. I am trying to be happy but all I seem to be doing lately is snapping my poor dh and everyone around me heads off. I hate feeling like this. Another thing that I'm having a hard time dealing with is dh best mate is coming out here tomorrow from America with his wife and 3.5 month old baby (who was born 3 weeks after our 1st due date) and are having bub Christened on Sunday and dh is God Father. I'm trying to be happy about seeing them but know that it will be hard to spend a lot of time with them. Oh well I guess I will just have to deal with it hey. Sorry for this vent but I needed to get it all out.