Jane - I am finding that we really are on an emotional rollercoaster. One minute we are up and feeling positive, and the next we are crashing down and wondering why we are doing this to ourselves. I have no idea what to say to you, as it would be the same advice I should be giving myself - and I don't want to say the wrong thing. Try talking to your friend, even if she doesn't understand or accept what you are saying, I think we still have to say the words, to let people know how we feel - otherwise it will just bottle up and we'll vent the words in a harsher way.

Like I did. I am so bitter with my family at the moment, as they just don't understand, or they don't acknowledge the way I am feeling. I lost it with them at Christmas. I said to my sister, I'm sure if your 5yo daughter died a few weeks ago, you might be a little upset right now and expect people to care. That's pretty harsh and unfair of me, isn't it? Lashing out at my sister, when she doesn't deserve it. Am I unfairly blaming other people for the way I'm feeling? I think I need to start that journal of my thoughts, or I need a therapist

What a sad bunch we are for being up so late when we should be sleeping